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2023.03.22 16:19 Derf314 PSA: G-Fuel can be bought in Charlottetown

This is kind of an update on a post from a few months ago questioning if Gfuel can be bought on PEI. A few said they found some at various gas stations, but my travels around the island always came up short.
High Mart in Charlottetown now carries a TON of different flavors in cans. So if you're looking for some, that's where you can get it. Hope this made someone's day.
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2023.03.22 16:19 not_2day_s8an I haven't drank in 50 days. Here are some of the approaches that I found helpful this time around and some of the highlights from staying off the sauce.

What's worked for me
I didn't try to change everything at once. My primary focus has been alcohol. If I had a bad day and wanted to stress eat, fuck it I gorged myself on unhealthy food. If I just needed to get fucked up, I ate some edibles. If I didn't want to go outside, I played video games. If I was tired, I slept in.
I had a secondary focus of exercising but honestly that is just to support the primary focus of not drinking. I found that setting a standard of running every other day for at least 20 minutes was achievable and curbed my cravings significantly. On top of that, I almost always did longer than 20 minutes.
At the beginning of each day, I make it a point to remind myself what I would be feeling like if I had drank the night before. I find this kind of positive reinforcement to really help when the sun starts to set. When the weather is nice and I want a beer, I try to think about how I wouldn't even be fully enjoying that weather today if I had drank the night before. Playing the tape forward (and backward) is immensely helpful to keeping my motivation.
Having short term, medium term, and long term goals has been really helpful. My short term goal basically just boils down to I will not drink today. My medium term goal is some sort of social plan to play board games or get a coffee the next day or the following day. Something that goes from being enjoyable to miserable if I'm hungover. Long term goal has been to run a 10k race.
The list goes on. I know it's not all roses and there are evenings and days I wish I was with my buddies having some brews but overall my quality of life is better without alcohol. I don't know if this is permanent but I know I'm not going to drink today and I know I'll be grateful regardless for the time spent away from it.
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2023.03.22 16:18 thinkingstranger March 21, 2023

As you know, I try to write this record of modern America from the perspective of what stories will matter in 150 years (about the span between the present and the Civil War).
So, for all the chop in the water about the former president facing indictments, the story that really seems uppermost to me today is the visit China’s president Xi Jinping made today to Moscow for a meeting with Russia’s president Vladimir Putin.
National Security Council Coordinator for Strategic Communications John Kirby told reporters today that China and Russia would both like “to see the rest of the world play by their rules rather than the ones that…are enshrined in the U.N. Charter and what everybody else is…following.” Kirby said the White House sees the relationship of Xi and Putin as a “marriage of convenience.” He explained:
“In President Putin and Russia, President Xi sees a counterweight to American influence and NATO influence certainly on the continent and elsewhere around the world. In President Xi, President Putin sees a potential backer.” Putin needs Xi’s support because of his misadventure in Ukraine. There, Kirby said, Putin is “blowing through inventory. He’s blowing through manpower. His military is getting embarrassed constantly. They’ve lost greater than 50 percent of the territory that they took in the first few months of this war. He needs help from President Xi, and that’s what this visit was all about.”
“Now,” he added, “whether it results in anything, we’ll see.”
When a reporter asked Kirby if Xi would provide lethal aid to Russia, Kirby answered, “We don’t think that China is taking it off the table, but they haven’t moved in that direction. We’ve seen no indication that they’re about to or — or fixing to provide lethal weapons.”
The Institute for the Study of War concluded that the outcome of the meeting was likely less than Putin wanted. It noted that Putin represented the meeting as showing the two countries working together against an adversarial West, while Xi only said the two countries were working together. This is a significant step down from the stance China took before Russia’s 2022 invasion of Ukraine, in which it declared it had a “no limits partnership” with Russia, suggesting China is not inclined to give Russia all the support it needs for that war.
Putin has been trying to rally states in Africa to his cause and likely hoped Xi would help that effort, but he did not.
The People’s Republic of China (PRC) and Russia put out a statement deepening their cooperation, but Sam Greene, Director for Democratic Resilience at the Center for European Policy Analysis (CEPA) and Professor of Russian Politics at King's College London, noted that the economic benefits of the statement all flowed from Russia to China, including Russia’s announcement that it will use yuan for foreign transactions with Asia, Africa, and Latin America.
“This summit…brings home exactly how much Putin has lost,” Greene wrote. “Prior to the war—even after 2014—Putin occupied a position of strategic maneuverability. He could arbitrage between east and west, reaping windfalls for his regime along the way. That’s all gone now. Putin tells his people he's fighting for Russia's sovereignty. In truth, he’s mortgaged the Kremlin to Beijing.”
Meanwhile, Prime Minister Fumio Kishida of Japan met with Ukraine president Volodymyr Zelensky today in a surprise trip to Ukraine at Zelensky’s invitation. It is the first visit of a Japanese prime minister to a country at war since World War II and demonstrates Japan’s growing international foreign policy presence. Last month, when Japan pledged $5.5 billion in humanitarian aid to Ukraine, Kishida said: “Russia’s aggression against Ukraine is not just a European matter, but a challenge to the rules and principles of the entire international community.” Today, he confirmed Japan’s “solidarity and unwavering support for Ukraine.”
The next most important issue of the day, to my mind, was President Joe Biden’s designation of two new national monuments under the Antiquities Act of 1906: Avi Kwa Ame in Nevada and Castner Range in Texas. These are Biden’s second and third new monument designations. Last fall he created the Camp Hale–Continental Divide National Monument in Colorado, and in 2021 he restored the protections to Bears Ears, Grand Staircase–Escalante, and Northeast Canyons and Seamounts National Monuments that Trump had removed. Both of the new monuments cover land sacred to Indigenous American tribes. Together, they protect nearly 514,000 acres.
Biden also directed Commerce Secretary Gina Raimondo to start the process of designating a marine sanctuary in the Pacific covering 777,000 square miles.
Biden is advancing his promise to conserve American lands, but he is also answering criticism of his administration’s approval of the controversial Alaska Willow oil drilling project on March 13. ConocoPhillips had existing leases for the project, and it has bipartisan support in Alaska, where locals expect it will bring jobs and income, so after debate, the administration let the project move forward. But environmentalists and those who recognize the immediate need to address climate change vehemently opposed the project, launched lawsuits immediately, and criticized the president.
“Our national wonders are literally the envy of the world,″ Biden said as he announced the new monuments. “They’ve always been and always will be central to our heritage as a people and essential to our identity as a nation.″
But while conservation groups and tribal members cheered the new designations, the new Republican governor of Nevada, Joe Lombardo, said that the federal government was confiscating Nevada land—a red-hot issue in the home state of the Bundy ranchers who have engaged in armed standoffs with law enforcement officers over public land—and said the new Nevada monument is “a historic mistake that will cost Nevadans for generations to come.”
None of this is to say that Trump’s troubles are not important. Indeed, the indictment of a president is unprecedented, and there is good reason to watch it closely, not least because the Republican Party has tied itself to him so completely it is now responding to the growing tide of legal news by calling for the investigation or even the arrest of those handling Trump’s many lawsuits– an alarming development.
Right now, though, much of what we are seeing is being churned up by Trump himself, and it feels far less important than the fact it appears that neither the legal nor the political momentum is in his favor.

📷Sam Greene @samagreeneIf you're looking for the TL;DR on Xi's visit with Putin, it is this: China's domination of Russia is complete. (a 🧵) /15:27 PM ∙ Mar 21, 20233,364Likes1,050Retweets
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2023.03.22 16:18 jerobserra QBI question and IRS Letter claim I owe them 3K

I will try to include as much info as I can. I did taxes myself this year.
I am self-employed and made around 52k last year. After my expenses and some gigs where I was paid as a w2 for big companies, my net left is 37k, 92% of that income is taxable which is 34k, and I made $4,300 in estimated tax payments.
This is where everything goes south, I called the IRS and told them that I disagree with the amount owed, and I believe they missed taking into consideration the QBI deduction.
They tell me that on line 26 I made a mistake a put $8,600 as estimated payments and only paid $4,300. I asked if I have to amend my return and correct that amount to fix what I owe and they said that doesn't make a difference and I just have to pay.
Wouldn't the QBI deduction lower the 34k taxable income?
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2023.03.22 16:18 Appropriate-King-896 Lollapalooza brasil show

I’m a Brasilian American and I’ve seen the boys perform a lot the past years in Chicago where I live but wow when I came for lolla brasil and they announced last minute that tøp was covering blink I screamed!! I’m gonna see the boys in my homeland for the first time, I think I might actually cry during the show for the first time😂 What is the coolest/ most meaningful place you’ve ever seen the boys? Wish me luck on my run to the barricade!!
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2023.03.22 16:18 letmeliveinmydreams What neighborhoods would you recommended I give a chance? Making 55k before taxes.

Hi, all!
I intended to move to Lake View East or Lincoln Park in the coming months but recently had second thoughts thinking of my longevity staying in Chicago. As of right now, I do not feel comfortable renting an apartment over $1200/month and worry about the rent renewal when my apartment lease is up. Of course, I did find some good apartments way under my hard limit but still I worry.
I have also heard that the two locations I would like to go to are very popular and expensive, and wondering if there are any other Chicago neighborhoods that would do me justice.
I am single, I do not have a car or children, I make 55k before taxes with around $350-$500 savings every month.
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2023.03.22 16:17 idk_little Can we talk money ? Hourly rates ?

I want to get a better understanding of the industry I find myself in. But also what does the djing business look like in different areas ?
-How do y’all price yourselves ? What’s your hourly rate ?
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2023.03.22 16:17 BungalowMan420 What should I use to cool my tent?

I have a 750watt light in my 4x4, with an exhaust, an intake, and 2 oscillating fans. It’s winter rn where I am and I have been cracking the window to keep my tent at temp.. is there a good AC unit I should look at that I can use during the winter that will keep my tent at a good temp?
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2023.03.22 16:17 Weak_Independence646 How is warrior holding up nowadays?

Hey everyone!
Was wondering how warrior is doing pve wise. I main zerk and average 9k trash at sycraia, 281/347. I enjoy tagging guardian, sage and warrior to mix things up on my grind but I'm debating on which of these 3 are good to have as tags.
I was getting 9k trash with succ guardian but with recent buffs, its honestly too strong to the point where it certainly feels different. With guardian the grind at sycraia feels like I'm slicing butter instead of actually breaking the mobs apart.
I love the spartan + godly feel that sage has, but he has this clunky feeling in awakening without his BSR that bothers me during my grind (I wish interrogate had faster animations).
With warrior I feel like I'm playing a clang montage from berserk. He is a bit high apm if I'm on try hard animation cancel mode but like zerk, once I pop executioner or BSR gameplay turns up and it feels like donning the berserker armor. Warrior is seldom spoken about on this reddit lately and the discord is dead, guides for warrior on YouTube are mostly a year old. How is he doing and are there any dedicated warrior mains that stream/upload? I know Biceptusprime but that's it. Thank you all in advance sorry for the long post.
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2023.03.22 16:17 _supernoob Privacy Breach: Resident shares my details with drug dealers who impersonate police officer to obtain information

Recently, I reported a vehicle that was being used by drug dealers in my neighbourhood (in England). I also shared* this information with the private chat group of the building where I reside.
However, two days later, I received a call from someone who claimed to be a police officer. This person did not give their name but knew the details of my report and stated that the case had been passed onto them by their colleagues. The call raised many red flags, and so I contacted 101, explained the situation, and made a complaint about the fake police officer. Shortly after, I got another phone call from an actual officer, only to confirm that the call was not genuine.
It appears that a regular customer of the drug dealers is a resident of my building and is sharing our private messages, names, and phone numbers with the drug dealers.
I have already reported this to the police, but I would like to know more about my legal options.
[*]: It's a common practice to share such reports in the group because additional reports to the police or council usually reference the first report.
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2023.03.22 16:17 ObjectiveFact9584 I don’t know if I have committed blasphemy against the Holy Spirit or if I’m good enough to be loved by Christ

Hi guys,
Long story short, I was born a Christian but have been a lukewarm my whole life, I just knew the basics or Christianity and praised when needed something ( I know it’s really bad) some time at the beginning of last year I was surrounded by Muslims and was convinced to take my shahada by my “friends” who convinced me Christianity wasn’t the way to go and Islam was to true religion. Since I didn’t know anything about Christianity nor did I did I have a relationship with Jesus I followed what they said blindly and took my shahada then reverted to Islam. After reverting I started praying 5 times a day and started learning about Islam. The more a learned the less I liked it and the more I became interested in looking deeper into both Christianity and Islam. I was drawn back to Christianity when I started reading the bible ( for the first time properly) I started with the main gospels and grew love for Christ . I started replacing secular music with worship and gospel but one thing I struggle with till this day is praying
I feel so much guilt for turning my back to my creator without giving him a chance, without knowing anything about him I just replaced him with something else. My parents don’t know I reverted to Islam and I regret it I want to revert back
It’s like the closer I get to him, the more I feel like I’ve betrayed him too much
I struggle with prayer cuz I always see this is a form of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit that cannot me forgiven and how to I pray to God when he hasn’t forgotten/ forgive my sins I don’t even know how to approach that where do I start with confession such a major sin ?
I have ask for forgiveness kind of … but just briefly skimmed past it like it was nothing I’m too ashamed and embarrassed to even tell anyone or admit to myself let along God confess to God.
I prayer with prayer cuz I can’t prayer with having such a bad burden in my heart I simply don’t know how to get over that or approach this with God.
I want to come back to Christ but idk if it’s too late, have I committed blasphemy? I really need help I have no one to talk to about this
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2023.03.22 16:17 No_Blueberry_7200 How can I get my mom to understand that ADHD does not make me any less of an adult?

For more context, I am close to my mom but sometimes she unintentionally hurts my feelings and it's very hard to explain that to her without it coming off as, "I don't appreciate what you do for me". This is especially difficult as a young adult trying to complete the milestones required for adulting. She has tendencies to point out that I'm neurodivergent or have ADHD in most conversations that we have on almost a daily basis. She also will talk to me as if I don't understand basic things. To give a more thorough example, I was getting a ride from someone and they were questioning the music I listen to and questioning why I couldn't drive. I later vented to my mom about the scenario and said that I should have told them that I'm neurodivergent so they can better understand me but I don't understand how that would be relevant to a person questioning things about me. I just don't feel comfortable telling people I don't know well that I have ADHD, it's personal information. I tried to explain to her how telling stranger about my disability does not always help the situation but sometimes makes it worse but she didn't fully understand that. My mom has also told me that she's not as comfortable with me getting a drivers license because of being neurodivergent. She's not against me getting a license but keeps suggesting that I need to just go at my own pace and get into the habit of taking public transit. I know she means well but it hurts.

There are also scenarios where she has spoken to me as if I was a small child. Last summer we went to an aquarium and before we left she asked if I had to use the bathroom since we were about to leave. I was so embarrassed and she asked, "Why do you look so offended?". I later tried to explain to her that it's not appropriate to ask that question to an adult and that I will communicate on my own if I need to use the restroom. She still did not understand. It was odd too because she has never asked that before and communicating about the restroom has never been an issue. It was something I learned to do as a very small child. I'm very introverted though so maybe my mom doesn't know me as well and that could be a part of the issue. Anyhow, in a more recent situation, I had gotten a new alarm clock that you can turn on and off by sliding the button. My mom demonstrated to me how to turn it on and off over and over saying, "Look, on and off, on and off". It was very embarrassing and I had to tell her, "Yes mom, I understand. It's very easy." I have other siblings and she doesn't talk to them the same way. I most definitely struggle with insecurities when it comes to being talked down to but I also want to have a better relationship with my mom and to have her understand me more as a person and not always label me as neurodivergent in every conversation we have.
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2023.03.22 16:17 lacey_overall Upscale Restaurant: March Madness Edition?

My partner and I want to take out another couple this weekend to celebrate a huge professional milestone. All 4 of us are NCCA basketball fans and would prefer to have dinner somewhere in German Village/Short North/Italian Village where we can watch the games.
I do realize that this may be a long shot, as most upscale restaurants are anti-TV for valid reasons.
Forno is the only one that comes to mind. I know Martini and Guild House each have one TV in the bar areas but my mind is drawing a blank as to other options.
Thanks in advance!
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2023.03.22 16:17 throwawayxlost I work as an afterschool teacher, the mean students and mean coworkers have been getting to me and causing me so much stress, idk how to not let it get to me.

Yesterday was terrible! Some students were just awful and the overall environment is so overwhelming for me, i usually have to do a routine of helping the kids find their classes and telling them where to go, and all of them talking to me at once cause a lot of overload, i have to tell them to please get into the line so i can go one by one but they dont listen a lot and find myself repeating myself over and over. Same thing happens with misbehavior in class, and it just get tiring after a while i cant imagine doing this type of job for very long or at least becoming a good worker, as im getting too tired to keep disciplining the students/telling them to behave/correct for long period of time and them not listening.
The main teacher tells the student to please stop talking and making noise while she teaches and while a student is playing (this is music class) and then a few seconds later they go back to making noise or trying to sneak into making noise and i find myself having to remind them every 5 minutes even the main teacher! When i took them to the lunch room for a break for the class they run around, misbehave, one kid drew something and told me to guess it and i didnt know what it was and he was like 'what kind of teacher are you, you dont know anything'' i told him sternly that is not nice to say and he should be respectful!
Then the kids kept drawing poop and giving it to me as a present and thought it was funny, one girl wrote stupid on someones drawing for me and told them to 'give it to me' when i called her out seriously she denied saying she wrote that! she also lies a lot and is a troublemaker
in another class i helped the teacher to try to quiet the class down and one kid mockingly told me 'okay miss'' and was waving his hands and mocking my voice and tone, i told him again that is not nice and to quit that or i will get the principal here, and i just walked away because i felt i was gonna snap as i was already in a bad mood and i still heard him mocking me, a little more quietly behind my back.
What a nightmare. My coworkers are ok, some are not so supportive or friendly, one coworker dislikes me for no reason, she talks to everyone but me, she avoids me, dont not speak to me, is hostile with me, i saw her yesterday, i had to place and the thing she carried was blocking the entrance, i gestured i needed to pass and she gave me a cold look and just pressed her hand to move the thing away. I really did not like her vibe or her attitude with me!
im near my period too my mood swigns are all over the place. im trying to find another job but no luck, my past experience have just been with kids but im tired of childcare and want to work in an office or somewhere more peaceful and less noisy with more mature coworkers!
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2023.03.22 16:17 irratatinglilblonde Looking for some areas downtown that will let me advertise.

I have a micro-farm that I am trying to turn into a job. Bee Hole Manor.
I have some fliers and free stickers and business cards that I would like to leave in areas where people would actually be interested in purchasing my products.
I have Quail eggs and Chicken eggs and Honey. Soon will be adding hypoallergenic beeswax candles and lip balms as well as some freeze-dried homemade candy and camp meals and snacks.
I was thinking of leaving them at places like Dot fox or Fat Rabbit or some small local coffee places.
Does anyone have any suggestions regarding good places to leave things like that where it is actually effective?
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2023.03.22 16:17 2012amica When would you decide to leave the US?

I’m sure there’s a more appropriate sub for this but this was the best I could think of and I’m active here so…
My question to you all is, hypothetically- when would you decide to flee the country? Have you ever considered leaving the US? Not even just a different state, but full emigration? At what point would you decide that’s necessary. My partner and I are at a point where we might decide in the next couple years to move to another country if things keep going down the paths they are. I’m also a queer, transgender Jew so this is something I think about often and keep an eye on. Especially thanks to this sub! Have any of you ever traveled abroad somewhere you’ve liked? Do you have an “emergency” escape plan?
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2023.03.22 16:17 masonMount1929 Need Help Remembering an Episode

Am I crazy?! I feel like I remember and episode or scene from a movie where the Rangers aren't allowed to speak or something and one of the Rangers (Pink I believe) sees a child/baby in trouble and is forced to yell and use her voice and give up their location or something??
Can anyone verify when/if this happened or if I am indeed crazy??
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2023.03.22 16:17 SouthParkiscool I've been traveling to different realities for six years. Washington DC update. (Part 4)

Part 3
Part 2
Part 1
As alternate me drove south, the pop music station switched back to the news channel. Whatever was going to happen in Washington DC in the alternate reality, I was screwed. My heart began to race as I pondered the possibilities. Building smashing would be insane, a creature dump would be the worst thing to get caught up in, an EMP Bubble complete with gassing would be terrifying as hell too, but I guess it would be a quick way to go. The entire city exploding would most likely be quick as well. Either way, and no matter how quick death could be, I didn't want to die at all.
Hopefully a task force made up of various other alternate me's would come rescue me. That's of course probably just a dream in the reality I'm in. For sure there is a team of alternate me's rescuing other alternate me's in some area of the multiverse. It's possible, so it's happening in some set of realities. I hope they come here too.
At around 8 AM, my stomach was rumbling. Luckily, my alternate self got the memo. Unfortunately, her response was cruel.
"Hungry back there? You don't need to eat anyway. It's not going to matter."
I'd probably find something to eat somewhere anyway. Hopefully…
Nothing new came up in the news. It was just talk about the three giants who attacked the UK. Other than that, the news reporters talked about the crashing worldwide economy on account of the Northeast China and Japan EMP Bubbles, the refugees emerging from EMP bubbles and claiming to have seen giants spraying gas on cities and towns, world leaders' reactions to the attacks, and the fall of the CCP, Russia, North Korea, Iran, the UK, Japan, along with the slow torture of the US. The reporters speculated about what the giants may want.
"They're taking out thousands of people in an obviously coordinated way, but we still don't know what they want."
"They for sure want us to be scared, and we definitely are, but yeah, why are they killing certain people who have no proven connection to each other?"
"Maybe that's part of their point. Make us go insane at their uncertainty."
As I browsed the internet, I came across a discussion thread claiming the giants were good because they were destroying all the fascist and flawed democratic governments. The comments of course disagreed, saying killing people is not the answer. It won't end fascism. Curious, I scrolled down to the very bottom to read the least popular comments.
"Yeah.. these giants are transforming this world for the better. Hopefully when their attacks are finished we can rebuild where they helped us out and just be better to each other"
Right… they helped us out… sure.
"Why are people expecting democracy in the aftermath of this? We need stronger leaders who can see past hypocrisy"
Giving people rights means being weak?
And of course… the craziest one.
"These attacks came out of nowhere. How? You're telling me giant titanic beings just popped out of nowhere and nobody had any foreknowledge? The government will do absolutely anything to control their citizens. China has collapsed? North Korea too? Even Iran? Yeah this was coordinated."
Because everyone's psychic and somehow knew beings like these would pop out of nowhere and catch everybody off guard? Also the UK, Canada, and Japan were attacked too. Why would the US attack its own allies? And itself? Especially its own facilities? This must be one of those every elite is a demonic Illuminati puppet theorist.
Hilarious comments aside, it's scary how people can believe just about anything is planned by the government. Demonic giants from who knows where cannot be the fault of any government. But that aside, there was yet another rabbit hole I stumbled down. On an obscure part of Reddit, there was a group who called themselves the Children of Satan's Titans. At first, I thought it was satirical, but as I read their posts, it was clear they were being serious. They thought the giants were bringing on armageddon and that they were supposed to lead the world after all is said and done. They even came up with nicknames for the giants.
The one that attacked Manhattan was the Grim Baron The one that attacked first was the Mother of Destruction for being the first giant to attack The one that forced Justin Trudeau into hiding was Lacertosis The giant duo who first attacked Newmarket and Aurora, Ontario were called the Ignis Duo
…and the list went on. The cult had come up with latin-translation names for each confirmed giant so far. There were 45 confirmed giants.
The car came to a stop. I slid my phone into my pocket and anticipated the worst. The three got out of the car. My alternate self's two cronies opened the trunk and told me to get out and to follow my alternate self or I'd be hit with another dart. I climbed out of the trunk, stepping onto a parking lot. As my alternate self began to walk, I followed. Cars were driving up and down the road, people were walking on the sidewalks. It was pretty busy. That made it even more saddening, as I knew the city was about to be attacked by giants.
"Where are we going?" I asked.
"Don't talk," alternate me said.
My alternate self was such a psycho. But why? What led her to berating every other version of her? How many times has this whole sort of thing happened? It can't be the first time. If it is, then that's a good thing… She isn't very experienced in this… but I can't let optimism cloud my judgment, especially with the pit of dread in my stomach. I was probably going to suffer whether I survived or not.
I want out of this hostel shit.
The three told me to wait outside a Starbucks. As I stood outside, I checked Reuters for some updates on the attacks. Interestingly, there weren't any. Once the three walked back out, we continued walking.
Over the following ~two hours, the three took me on a tour of the city. However, it was more of a goodbye tour, with my alternate self making snarky comments at every tourist attraction. I'll just list the stuff she said and the places we went to.
When we stopped in front of the White House…
"See this magnificent building here? It's about to be swarmed by a mass of wild creatures. Hope the president makes it out alive."
When we walked by the Smithsonian National Museum…
"All the lovely stuff in there is going to be torn to pieces"
When we walked by the Washington Monument…
"Creatures are going to scale that thing looking for guts to eat"
When we walked by the Capitol Building…
"Creatures this time, and 100 times worse"
When we walked by the Supreme Court of the United States…
"Ever wanted to cut the court in half? Well here we are"
When we walked by the National Academy of Sciences…
"New stuff to put in science books. History books even. Imagine if you had a 21st Century history book and could know how the rest of this century unfolds for this timeline."
While her comments were presented as if they were light, they creeped me the hell out. She was joking about my likely death and reminding me of all the terrible things that were about to happen. What kept me most on edge was the uncertainty of when the creatures would be dumped. There being no updates about the attacks gave me a calm before the storm vibe too. I began to jump at the sight of dogs running by. The Ian and Billy behind me couldn't stop giggling each time.
At the end of the tour, my alternate self led me to what at first looked like the entrance to a subway train station. It was called Dupont Underground. Alternate me led me down some concrete stairs and stopped at a door. She turned to me while pulling her phone out.
"I'm going to show you something from a different reality," she said, with a sinister look in her eyes. "This timeline, but one month from now."
She tapped around for a minute, then she held her phone in front of my eyes. A video was playing. The camera operator walked down a deserted city road. Every car was stalled in the middle of the road with shattered windows and some had huge body dents. I saw the Dupont Underground sign and realized it was the street we were on. The camera operator took a right down the concrete steps. At the bottom was a body covered in blood and fleshy holes. The camera operator walked up to the body and zoomed in on its face. I recognized her. It couldn't be. But it probably was.
"This is you after having your guts sucked out by creatures," alternate me said.
My heart sank. An odd eeriness overtook me. That was me. Dead. My unmoving body laying on the ground. I was looking at my own corpse. I had never seen a dead alternate version of me before. That was about to be me. Technically it was an alternate version of me, but it mirrored what was going to happen to me. I shivered with dread.
"I… I'm…… I'm going to be eaten alive"
"Oh suck it up," alternate me said.
"Yeah," Ian added.
"Don't cry too much," Billy added.
"Don't cry?" I asked. "I was shown my fate you shit!"
"And there's no way to avoid it," alternate me said. "Now, we're taking you for another walk. This time, just a stroll."
"What is the point exactly?" I asked.
"Exercise," alternate me shrugged.
My alternate self took me on a long walk up north. She didn't say a word to me. Neither did Billy or Ian. I made sure to keep my mouth shut, anxious I'd be taken into a back alley and be injected with fire ants of all things. After an hour of walking, I became exhausted. My knees felt like they were going to snap, I was sweating all over, and my breaths were shallow. My stomach began to ache from not eating. I was still too anxious to talk. We went to a McDonald's, but alternate me told me I wasn't allowed to have anything. She had to have been taunting me.
We walked north for another exhaustive aching hour. I was thirsty as fuck. We stopped at a convenience store where alternate me gave me a water bottle. It wasn't something I expected, but I guess he did it just so I wouldn't faint from heat exhaustion. It made the following hour of walking refreshing, but my stomach was still numb. At least we were walking back though. But it dawned on me that it only meant my death was closer than ever. The pit of dread in my stomach deepened, distracting me from the numbness in my stomach. There was a hint of sadness behind every thought I had. I played a song in my head as I continued to follow behind my alternate self. The songs I heard in the Creature Dump Aftermath footage. Just me playing the memory I had of them back in my head calmed me down a bit. For the following hour after that, I anticipated the moment where my legs would just give out. The three psychos would have to understand, but they probably wouldn't… and so I just kept walking, hoping my legs wouldn't give out.
After four hours of walking, I could see the White House right up ahead. I needed a break. I thought it was over, but then we began circling the freaking Washington strip.
I thought I could give out in a place where there were no back alleyways or any place of the sort. I'd get quite a bit of attention. Maybe too much for my alternate self to handle even with two others. But I'd still be in the city… damnit. There was no way I could run either, being exhausted like hell.
Finally, after circling the Washington strip a tenth time, my alternate self told me I could sit down on a nearby park bench, but that I still couldn't eat. I took the offer and rested on the empty bench. Euphoria was all I felt for a good minute, then my adrenaline went back up.
She's letting me rest. Finally… Yes…. I'm going to die but this is worth it right now, even though it really isn't.
"Alright, now I'm going to show you something you're going to want to see," Billy said.
Oh god… another horrific video… I assume.
She held her phone in front of my eyes. It was a private Instagram live stream featuring two men who looked around my age.
"Hello, Nicole," said the one on the left. "This is your cousin, Sam."
"I'm your cousin Markus," said the one on the right.
They're my cousins? Oh, okay. What are they doing?
"We're in a room in the Niagara Falls Observatory," Sam said. "We aren't allowed to come out. We don't know why."
"We don't know who put us in here," Markus said. "Just two girls. One looked very similar to you… Your doppelganger I guess."
A boom echoed from somewhere off camera.
"What was that?" Markus asked.
Multiple booms began echoing from somewhere offscreen, getting louder and louder and louder. Sam and Markus both looked to their right. The booming stopped. A crashing noise echoed from above, followed by an avalanche-like rumble. Sam and Markus looked up, then the stream ended.
Billy navigated to a YouTube livestream of CTV news helicopter footage. A giant was looking around as missiles struck it. But a background detail caught my eye. The Falls.
What the fuck…? did she just show me a live stream of my cousins' deaths? What the hell…?
She skipped back a minute. The giant smashed the tower down, creating a plume of smoke.
"I hope they treated you well," she said.
"Nicole?!" I shouted at my alternate self, who was standing a meter away from Billy. "That's too far!"
"It was my idea," Billy said with a huge smile on her face.
"You're a fucking psycho!" I shouted and stood up. "Were they from this timeline or my own?!"
Billy stood there with her hand on her hip, continuing to smirk. "I'm not telling you," she said. She turned around and walked away. Ian and my alternate self followed.
"Where are you going?" I shouted.
"Have fun," alternate me said as she walked away.
The three walked out of my sight. I stared on, once again wondering what the hell made them so psychotic. They're just evil versions of people. That's all I knew.
I checked the time. 6:35 PM. I sat down and teared up. I was about to be eaten by wild gut sucking creatures. A girl just executed my cousins.
I'm still trapped in this dark reality.
At least I won't have to deal with those three ever again… or anybody…
How painful is it going to be? I don't want to go out in pain… but it looks like that's going to happen.
There's no way I can get out of here before the creatures come. At least, I assume so. Wait… what if my alternate self gave me enough time to get out of DC, but wanted me to think she left me alone because the creatures would be here in a matter of minutes after he left? I was probably overthinking, but I'm not going to take that chance. I need to get out of here while I can.
I trekked in a random direction. South. I wasn't going anywhere near Dupont Underground. My heart sank at the thought of being there. But I wasn't going to stop without eating. I marched into a convenience store and bought anything I could, then I found a park bench and ate everything I had just bought. I was met with some acid reflux in my mouth due to my guts clenching at the idea I may be overthinking alternate me's possible plan, but other than that, I stomached it pretty well.
But as I was eating, I overheard a conversation a couple of people were having.
"So you think this is the end of the world?"
"Maybe. I wouldn't be surprised at this point."
A little kid began balling their eyes out.
"Mommy, he said the world is going to end!"
"The world isn't going to end… It's just going to be… changed. Different."
"Did you hear about the cluster attacks though? They're going for specific people for sure. I can't wait for this stuff to be figured out," an older voice said.
"Cluster attacks?"
"Yeah those giants hit over 6000 houses and apartment buildings all over the world around an hour ago," the older voice explained.
"Where did you hear that?"
"The news. It's crazy."
"I heard there was an attack in Pittsburgh, but not much information was given about it."
"I haven't heard anything about that attack."
None of them know… I hope they're driving out of the area right about now.
As I walked by a short orange building, an overbearing presence struck me.
"Oh no, oh god," I whispered to myself. "I hope that's all in my head."
The cars driving up the road in my direction slowed and people walking in my direction looked up. Some of them began pointing. Dread overtook me to the point I decided to stop walking. I froze. If the next creature dump was happening in seconds, I was screwed.
I kept walking, avoiding my curious urge to look where everyone was looking. Two people turned around and ran. The roaring of car motors began to get faster. I took a glance behind me. My heart stopped. Two giants stood some miles away, holding giant sack-like objects. The two giants tilt the sacks and thousands upon thousands of wild creatures fell out. As the creatures rained down, I turned my head back in the direction I was headed in and sprinted down the sidewalk.
Where do I go?
The river. Can the creatures swim? I'll take any chances.
I ran down the sidewalk, in the direction one of the rivers was in. The adrenaline was peaking. I couldn't think about anything other than survival. I ran through a small park, navigating the benches and people frozen in fear. I crossed the next street without looking at the traffic lights, I nearly tripped over chairs, I almost bumped into people running from my right. I ran that way for seven blocks straight, almost being hit by a car three times. I carefully navigated across a main street. As I crossed the street, air raid sirens began to blair from all directions. I found a one way road to my left and just sprinted for my life.
Hopefully the river is close.
At the end of the road was a parking lot. Nobody was there. I sprinted across it until I found a trail. Down the trail, I saw the river. Boats too. I ran along the trail and saw a spot away from the boats to jump into the water. A couple explosions shook the ground beneath me as I ran. I hopped over the fence and jumped into the water.
I swam until I got to the middle of the river. I glanced around. Everything seemed calm and normal in all directions until a loud bang hit my right ear. I looked to my right and saw a cloud of smoke rising from a triple arched bridge in the distance. People jumped off the bridge and landed in the river below. The air raid sirens continued to blair as fighter jets flew by in the distance. I just needed to stay in the river until the creature invasion blew over.
I looked to my right and saw two creatures crawl across the building beside the parking lot I ran through. Three creatures ran onto the pier. The adrenaline worsened.
Time to find out if these beasts can swim.
They ran around and jumped onto some of the boats. A painful scream echoed from one of them. A man was stumbling around with a creature attached to his head and stomach. He pulled on its tentacles, but they held their grasp. He nudged himself sideways into the water. Seconds later, the creature started squirming around in the water, with its tentacles flailing about. I shivered. It was a terrifying sight. The man floated on the surface, shaking his head and moving his arms as if he were a bird. Soon the creature stopped moving and just floated in one spot like a dingy.
I'm good. But how long will it be until the military clears them? I'll just have to wait.
Explosions, gunshots, and emergency sirens from every direction, along with the roar of fighter jets flying overhead, were all I could hear. I couldn't hear the waves washing up against my own ears, or the sound of my own voice. I decided to play those songs in my head again to pass the time. I played other songs in my head too, all while hoping some soldiers would see me, then rescue me.
After a good amount of time in the water, the sounds of explosions seemed to be concentrated on an area to the north. I could only speculate it was the government strip. I looked to my right again and noticed a dozen creatures were occupying the pier.
This wasn't getting better anytime in the next hour. Hopefully I'll be in the clear soon. Once I am, I need to make sure my alternate self cannot find me.
At one point, I woke up to me being pulled out of the water by some Marines. They put me on a boat and asked me some questions, then they gave me some water. After the rescue, they took me to a refugee camp somewhere in southern Virginia. I was given food, water, and my own little room with a bunk bed. I sat down on the bed, hoping I'd be safe from the creatures. I unzipped my pocket and pulled out my phone to read up on the creature dump in Washington DC. These were the top headlines on CNN, for those curious:
"All branches of the US Armed Forces are responding to the attack on Washington - Yes, even the Space Force as the US speculates the giants are of extraterrestrial origin"
"Images from above: the White House, US Capitol moderately damaged by wild creatures"
"Five major politicians, 2 billionaires, and 1 celebrity confirmed dead in Washington DC after Creature Dump"
""Nuclear weapons aren't likely to be used, but they have not been ruled out""
"Pennsylvania, Virginia set up refugee camps for predicted mini-flood of refugees from EMP-striken, gassed parts of Ohio, Kentucky, and West Virginia"
"Global Recession: Why economists are torn on whether or not the economy will return to pre-attack levels"
"Refugees from Florida EMP Bubbles: "We went into town after the gassing and we saw people and animals on the ground, everywhere""
""We need FEMA" EMP Bubble refugees who are staying in their states criticize their state governments for not declaring an emergency"
"MILITARY: There's no way to protect any type of technology from an EMP Bubble"
A guy with brown hair who looked to be in his early 20s walked into the room. He introduced himself as my roommate. We talked about the attacks and their potential ramifications.
"I don't know what's next for the world," I said. "I'm scared."
"We're going to be at war for a while," he said. "Good vs bad. We need to ready ourselves for what's to come. Everything is different now."
"I mean, at this point, I'd just end it if I didn't feel like I had a chance to survive this new world," I said. "Especially being in the initial attacks… I thought about ending it a few times."
"So you're a coward?" He asked.
"What do you mean?"
"Why would you leave people behind to suffer?"
"I'm not the one making them suffer"
"Yes you are… by killing yourself… people want you around…"
"Dude… nobody owns me. Do you think I'm a slave or something? People shouldn't be relying on others for their happiness."
"You are so stupid"
"Are you that entitled? Do you feel you need to treat people like entertainment animals? People are individuals. They're not your Mom's nipples either."
"I just… can't with selfish people like you"
"Honestly, if you can't respect others' choices and call victims cowards, you're just like the monsters and their little gut eating creatures."
"I don't understand why you'd support selfish people," he said. "You're like my ex-girlfriend."
"Maybe if you respected her individualism more, accepted the fact that mental health issues exist, talked about and validated her issues, she wouldn't have done it."
"Oh, okay, so you're okay with what those Empire State Building jumpers did?"
"Yes," I said. "They acted on survival instincts. It was either get eaten or jump."
"A real person would fight!"
"Survival instincts don't exist to you, do they?"
"I'm not talking to you, man," he said, climbing up to his bunk.
He had me until the victim blaming. Anyway, I went back to reading the news and reminded myself I'm not responsible for other people. Sometime after that, I went to sleep. Sometime later, I woke up to the sound of gunshots and shouting. I looked out the window. Two of those hideous creatures crawled by. I closed the curtains. I checked the news, hoping there wasn't another creature dump nearby.
"US East Coast on high alert as wild creatures make it past military checkpoints around DC Metro Area"
"Security video from Philadelphia captures creature that came from DC Metro area"
""V-BASCBHOB-TJCPSZAMDLSA-IKPJJ-HBCHLL" The FBI is investigating the string of letters scratched into the Washington Monument by the creatures"
"OPINION: After a week of teasing, it's the US' turn to fall"
I want out of this painful chaotic dark reality. Maybe there's a slip nearby. It probably wouldn't take me back to my home reality, but anything would be better than this. I've been to dark realities, like one where there was a third world war in the 1960s followed by a fourth world war in the 2010s, in which technology was a bit more advanced, but Eastern Europe and the Eastern United States were irradiated. There was a darker reality where giants attacked multiple metropolitan areas around the world. EMPs were used, but they weren't EMP Bubbles. People were crying, hoping their friends were okay. It was more mysterious, with every initial attack happening within the darkened areas. It started in New Zealand, South Korea, and Japan. Then it spread west to the US in about a day.
Something heavy banged on the door. Shit… I opened the window, clawed the screen apart, and climbed out. I stepped onto the grass, then I sprinted away. I needed to find the gate. It was probably guarded, but I could find a way somehow. Not to sound too optimistic.
The gate was up ahead. There were three dead soldiers lying on the ground around it. After navigating my way through it, I sprinted across the street and into a dense forest.
Half an hour into running, my knees became weak again. I sat down up against a tree to catch my breath. I must've relaxed for a bit too long, as I essentially just blinked and the sun was shining and birds were chirping. I checked the time. 8:02 AM. I checked the news. There were no new updates.
Where do I go now?
There was no place for me to go that I knew of. Slips weren't extremely common. They weren't active 24/7 either. Until I found one, I had to deal with the possibility of being crushed, gassed, or eaten. I didn't expect my alternate self to find me. I was outside of the DC Metro area. To him, I could be anywhere.
Unless of course she tapped my phone… but she most likely would've shown up by now if he had. Knowing me, he probably would've gone to a reality where I famously snuck out of the refugee camp and my steps were publicly retraced, then he'd use that information to find me. Looks like I just need to walk in a direction that is almost one I'd go in but is not one I'd go in, in this situation. I chose to walk in the direction of the ocean.
As I walked, a bird flew right by me. I watched it fly away, then vanish out of thin air.
I went over to the spot with a good adrenaline rush coming on. I pulled out my phone and pulled up Reuters. I refreshed the page. The headlines were still about the giants. I walked back and forth once a minute for some time, clamping the leaves to the ground in the process. The headlines were the same. I was desperate, but I dreaded my alternate self finding me. I layed on the dirty ground, letting the leaves brush against my hair. Every few minutes or so, I'd refresh the page and there would still be news about the giants. I wanted to be home, where everything is safe, peaceful, and quiet compared to this place. I didn't want to hear another boom or a certain growl again.
A number of minutes later, I checked the news again.
"Russia warns US over Black Sea drone flights"
"No path to peace: 5 key takeaways from Xi and Putin's talks in Moscow"
"Russian soldier accused of war crimes in absentia after audio files intercepted"
There was nothing about the giant attacks. The headlines were normal again! I slipped! But did I slip into the right reality? A safe one?
I Googled the attacks. Only movie scenes and recaps came up. I had to be home. I had to be far away from wherever my alternate self was. My heart dropped for a second as I realized one of those creatures was roaming around in what may be our reality… I'm sure it'll be taken care of. I hope it's taken care of soon though. It's going to eat a few people for sure, and I hope I'm not one of them.
I got distracted by the sound of an animal moving through the bush beside me. I brought my head up and saw the head of a tentacled creature. It sat still on the side of the bush. Its tentacles brush against the dirt. I laid my head back down. My heart began to speed up as the thing sat there. If it saw me, I would have no chance of living for another minute. The leaves served as a barrier between it and I. I couldn't see it when laying down and it couldn't see me at its height.
"Hey!" A man shouted from some distance further to my left. "Are you alright over there?"
The leaves ruffled. The man looked down in confusion, then he jumped. As he began to turn around, the creature climbed onto him. He fell to the ground as the creature's tentacles grabbed his arms and chest. He screamed. The scream was gut wrenching, but at least this was my ticket out. I got up and ran as fast as I could through the bushes and trees around me. Once I came across a road, I took a left and continued sprinting. My heart was pounding out of my chest. At one point, I came across a river. I stood still on the shoreline, hoping that thing wasn't about to jump out of the bushes. I turned around. Nothing.
I went to my Reddit account and found my previous update. I'm back. I'm going to dump this update here, then hopefully I'll find a good place to stay while running. If I go back home to my parents, I'm going to need a defense mechanism. My alternate self wanted me to be in that dark terrifying reality. She probably doesn't know I'm still alive.
Oh, and if you live in or around Richmond, Virginia… stay safe. The creature moves fast and, as you know, it eats your guts.
Now I hear three familiar voices. I need to run.
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2023.03.22 16:16 CartographerConnect9 £1.5K build for Cities skylines!

Hi Guys,
Im trying to build my first ever PC and i want it catered as much towards the city building game Cities skylines, CS2 is also coming out this year so it will need to be future proofed for that too. If anyone could help with this would be great im really struggling.
Main things it needs is: High CPU clock speed minimum 32GB RAM with good speed Decent graphics card so its future proofed for CS2 Needs to play on 1440p
Please keep in mind im in the UK where parts are more expensive than US and currency exchange can affect price.
Thanks and let me know
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2023.03.22 16:16 throwRA_ryanb My (25m) gf (20f) got nasty when I asked her for a key to her apartment.

So im 25, my GF is 20. We’ve been together almost a year. She is making me feel pretty shitty about my living situation. She doesn’t come from a great family, and they kicked her out as soon as she turned 18 so she was thrown into independence way before she should have been. I, on the other hand, have a very helpful & loving family.
I dropped out of college 7 years ago, and time has just kind of flown by. I have never had a girlfriend before her, so I really didn’t spend much time planning a future or a timeline. Was just kinda seeing where things go.
My girlfriend told me when we first started dating, that she’s looking for something serious. Eventually Marriage, kids , ect in the next few years. I agreed and said I am looking for the same. I have a decent paying job right now. So I’m not a bum.
She told me that before we move in together, I should spend time living alone by myself so I can learn about “finances “ and “expenses”. I applied for one apartment on Zillow, and didn’t hear back, so I kind of gave up. I do want to move in with her tho. But I feel like it’s too soon to live together since we’ve been together a little less than a year. And her apartment is just a studio so we both wouldn’t fit I feel. So she got an apartment by herself.
My parents pay pretty much all of my bills except my car note. They pay my insurances, food, phone, ect. They also deal with all the insurance specifics. I have been trying to find my own insurance, and my girlfriend seems to look down on me when I struggle to do it or attempt to apply. Since I’m on their current medical insurance now, my mom helps me find a doctor since they’re in her network. So she feels I’m incapable or something.
She was being a bit rude when she was explaining the cost of living to me, and I told her I don’t really know how much groceries cost since my family pays for them. She said “you really don’t know how much toilet paper costs” ? Or “you don’t have an idea of a phone bill” Like my parents never asked me to pay so I didn’t ask.
She moved into her own apartment from living with roommates a few months ago. I asked her if I could have a key so I could come over and surprise her with food or something when she gets home from work. She works longer hours than me. She said that “I don’t give keys to people who’s names aren’t on the lease” “pay half my bills you’ll get the key” I was like woah…. That’s kind of harsh. I’m there 4 days a week at least. I bring her some groceries here and there and help her clean sometimes. I can’t have a key?
I feel judged and she needs to realize barley anybody her age is doing what she’s doing. She’s rushing for settling down and I originally didn’t want to for another 10 years. But I love her so I agreed to get serious. All of my friends live at home and some don’t even have jobs and do nothing with their life. So idk. I feel like I’m not that extreme.
I felt it was reasonable to ask for a key if I’m staying there so much.
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2023.03.22 16:16 Accurate-Tea9750 (This is a screenshot of an online grocery delivery app in india where they deliver stuff to your doorstep within 10 minutes)

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2023.03.22 16:16 Archeronas My wife cheated on me while I was hospitalized.

I was originally going to post this on a throwaway but whatever.
I've been with this woman for over 15 years. We've been married for 2+. 2 kids, one teenager and one toddler.
In April '22, I went to the ER, which eventually led to me being hospitalized for a rare form of blood cancer. I was hospitalized for three weeks. Those three weeks sucked being away from my 2 kids and my wife. Especially hard on her since I took care of mostly everything around the house and now she was being forced to be a single parent while I was being treated.
On the day of my discharge, my wife admitted to me that she had been talking to ex-fiance for support. She claimed I stopped talking to her and he's the only one she can easily open up to. If this was as far as it went, I would have been fine with it..
For some history, we had some fights six or seven years ago, where for a few weeks, we 'took a break' (this was prior to marriage). She told me she was leaving to go see him. For those few weeks, I didn't really care. I was kind of done. So to my surprise a few weeks later, we have 'the talk' and asks what I want. I told her that I figured we were over and that's what she wanted. Turns out that she decided to stop seeing him and said that we need to work on our relationship.
This felt like a complete 180 from what I was expecting. So when she didn't expect it, I snooped.
This is the man of her dreams, soulmates, whatever. Even at this point where I'm at now, these two are made for each other. So why did she suddenly want to fix our relationship?
Through my snooping, I found out they were fucking on the regular in parking lots. Also read that she would choose him over me any day of the week without question. (I only found out within the last few months that she stopped seeing him because he was getting married)
I naively thought things would be better, so I stayed. I had my son to worry about at the time too....
After hospital release
Once I was home, it just didn't sit right with me. During the night, I snooped again. I didn't trust her this time. Especially when it involved him.
It started off innocently enough, with talking about my condition and how hard life was for her doing single parent duties while I was in the hospital.
Then it broke into how she missed him and their relationship, and he went all in on all the things that he missed about her. She sent him nudes. Talked about how much they missed their sex life. After reading for a while, I just couldn't anymore. But the thing that hurt the most was reading... that she didn't even miss me, just the fact that I wasn't around to help in the house.
This broke me. For the next few nights, I made excuses to not sleep in the same bed as her. Told her I was too used to sleeping alone or the rigidness of the hospital bed.
After the first week home, she asked if she could go see him. She reassured me that it was all friendly. To not look like the possessive husband, I agreed. She could tell I was growing resentment.
So the next night, after some arguing, I finally told her that I knew and she was cheating. Of course she denied any wrongdoing. Until I told her I knew that she was sending him nudes.
Here I am almost a year to the anniversary of my diagnosis. She leaves every other night after our youngest is asleep to see this man (who is going through a divorce now). I stay home and spend time with my eldest son and game.
I don't love her anymore, but I care about her wellbeing. She has a chronic illness where if she doesn't get her meds, she'll die. So I can't just get rid of her.
Truth is, I know I've just been a doormat the last year. But I know that going through a divorce is going to fuck me in the court system.
I seriously don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to, as she essentially didn't let me have many friends in the years we've been together because it was always 'what about me while you're out?'
There's definite gaps I didn't fill in here, and I apologize for that.
TLDR: Wife cheated while hospitalized. A year later, I've done nothing. Call me stupid.
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