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The purpose of this community is to explore human energy in all of its facets while stripping way the esoteric language, rituals and distractions that have accumulated over the years. Out of body experiences, energy healing, energetic connections between people, psychic work and everything in between. This sub is open for discussion, learning and teaching, without judgement, on any and every form of energy work regardless of degree of social acceptability or stigma.
2023.03.22 17:43 ricecrackerdude Do not be afraid to utilize your Equal Opportunity Employment rights (My personal story)
I was diagnosed with epilepsy at 21 after I began having seizures due to scarring in my brain (post brain tumor surgery).
A few years after that, I found a great job at a local college working as an IT Tech Assistant. It was the best job I had landed in my entire life, up until I had a gran mal seizure while at work (a year into my job). I remember the ambulance being called and I remember waking up in a hospital.
Two weeks after the incident, my supervisors called me into their office and terminated me. I cried and apologized. I felt ashamed.
It wasn't until years later I realized what they did violated my equal opportunity employment rights. Which I should of immediately reported to EEOC but I did not (in hindsight).
Years later, I'm working as an attendant at a gas station and I'm cleaning outside in the middle of July. I felt a seizure coming on, so I sat down on the sidewalk and tried calling my fiance. I heard her voice, then I had the seizure and hit my head on the sidewalk. I woke up in an ambulance and they said I had a seizure (which a customer came to my aide luckily).
Two months later, the manager begins submitting paperwork to have me terminated. He then suprises me one morning with termination. I had no idea why and I start crying. He claims my work performance was slipping and that's why he has to let me go.
Then it clicked again when I realized I had worked there for 3 years with no issues and no problems. I was a good employee and did my job properly. Then I read his termination statement and realized I may have been fired under discrimination. I filed a complaint to the EEOC and have an appointment coming up with them.
Moral of the story is, you have rights as an employee with epilepsy. Don't ever be ashamed to file complaints, ask questions and stand up for yourself. There are people out there to help you. Epilepsy is considered a disability protected under the Equal Opportunity Employee rights.
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A few years after that, I found a great job at a local college working as an IT Tech Assistant. It was the best job I had landed in my entire life, up until I had a gran mal seizure while at work (a year into my job). I remember the ambulance being called and I remember waking up in a hospital.
Two weeks after the incident, my supervisors called me into their office and terminated me. I cried and apologized. I felt ashamed.
It wasn't until years later I realized what they did violated my equal opportunity employment rights. Which I should of immediately reported to EEOC but I did not (in hindsight).
Years later, I'm working as an attendant at a gas station and I'm cleaning outside in the middle of July. I felt a seizure coming on, so I sat down on the sidewalk and tried calling my fiance. I heard her voice, then I had the seizure and hit my head on the sidewalk. I woke up in an ambulance and they said I had a seizure (which a customer came to my aide luckily).
Two months later, the manager begins submitting paperwork to have me terminated. He then suprises me one morning with termination. I had no idea why and I start crying. He claims my work performance was slipping and that's why he has to let me go.
Then it clicked again when I realized I had worked there for 3 years with no issues and no problems. I was a good employee and did my job properly. Then I read his termination statement and realized I may have been fired under discrimination. I filed a complaint to the EEOC and have an appointment coming up with them.
Moral of the story is, you have rights as an employee with epilepsy. Don't ever be ashamed to file complaints, ask questions and stand up for yourself. There are people out there to help you. Epilepsy is considered a disability protected under the Equal Opportunity Employee rights.
2023.03.22 17:43 avybb How to handle favoritism in parents?
So I’d like to start off by saying- my parents don’t owe me anything and I know that. My parents and I had a rocky relationship when I was a teen. I had mental health issues including self harm that they refused to have me treated for. I am now medicated, have been to therapy, and am well functioning.
We have since mended and I know that despite our differences they gave me a good childhood.
That said I’m struggling with feeling like my parents show a lot of favoritism to my brother. It’s not healthy to keep score but as a result of my parents and I’s difficult relationship when I was a teen they refused to help me in times of need as a young adult. I had to buy my own car, pay for my own college, and if something came up then too damn bad.
I am now 23, have a bachelors with minimal debt, own my car, own a home, a career in a good paying field, and I am married. We are not having children, and we had a small elopement ($200 dress, photographer, and vow exchange).
My brother is 21, just had a $10k+ wedding and his wife is now expecting. He works a job my dad got for him, and his wife has not kept a job for more than 9 months and will be unemployed in June (2 months before baby is due).
My parents gave my brother a job, paid for the few college classes he chose to attend, gave him a car, and now they are considering buying a duplex in our city to give him and his wife a low cost place to live. They already help him with bills and paid a large sum of wedding expenses for him.
I want my brother to have these things- especially with a baby on the way. But it hurts to know how hard I had to work to get where I am (working multiple jobs with college classes, pushing myself constantly) and see them hand these things so freely to him. I feel left out but I don’t want to strain my relationship with my parents or imply my brother shouldn’t have these things.
How do you deal with feeling second? I am proud of where I am, but I am sad to know on some level my parents want to protect him more than they wanted to protect me.
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We have since mended and I know that despite our differences they gave me a good childhood.
That said I’m struggling with feeling like my parents show a lot of favoritism to my brother. It’s not healthy to keep score but as a result of my parents and I’s difficult relationship when I was a teen they refused to help me in times of need as a young adult. I had to buy my own car, pay for my own college, and if something came up then too damn bad.
I am now 23, have a bachelors with minimal debt, own my car, own a home, a career in a good paying field, and I am married. We are not having children, and we had a small elopement ($200 dress, photographer, and vow exchange).
My brother is 21, just had a $10k+ wedding and his wife is now expecting. He works a job my dad got for him, and his wife has not kept a job for more than 9 months and will be unemployed in June (2 months before baby is due).
My parents gave my brother a job, paid for the few college classes he chose to attend, gave him a car, and now they are considering buying a duplex in our city to give him and his wife a low cost place to live. They already help him with bills and paid a large sum of wedding expenses for him.
I want my brother to have these things- especially with a baby on the way. But it hurts to know how hard I had to work to get where I am (working multiple jobs with college classes, pushing myself constantly) and see them hand these things so freely to him. I feel left out but I don’t want to strain my relationship with my parents or imply my brother shouldn’t have these things.
How do you deal with feeling second? I am proud of where I am, but I am sad to know on some level my parents want to protect him more than they wanted to protect me.
2023.03.22 17:43 CobraStriker325 Sentai team that both conducts and covers very sensitive and top secret operations.
Classified information is material that a government body deems to be sensitive information that must be protected. Access is restricted by law or regulation to particular groups of people with the necessary security clearance and need to know, and mishandling of the material can incur criminal penalties.
For the team, whom funded by government agencies, wanted important information to be classified in order to not get into wrong hands, it was the obvious choice that five members, with higher levels of keeping secrets out of ordinary people, being the perfect fit for government's protection of secret information unavailable to others.
The motif of the team is espionage/security-based. Which means that if the team decided to protect top secret information from the wrong hands, the team is going use vault with highest security levels possible. And if the team decided to steal top secret information from other government agencies, breaching tools is the obligation ones to use: drill, crowbar, thermite, explosive devices and computer-hacking tools.
The giant mecha is not available to use, because otherwise the team gets exposed and will lose your secrecy reputation.
So what do you think of the espionage/security-based motif? Is it good or not?
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For the team, whom funded by government agencies, wanted important information to be classified in order to not get into wrong hands, it was the obvious choice that five members, with higher levels of keeping secrets out of ordinary people, being the perfect fit for government's protection of secret information unavailable to others.
The motif of the team is espionage/security-based. Which means that if the team decided to protect top secret information from the wrong hands, the team is going use vault with highest security levels possible. And if the team decided to steal top secret information from other government agencies, breaching tools is the obligation ones to use: drill, crowbar, thermite, explosive devices and computer-hacking tools.
The giant mecha is not available to use, because otherwise the team gets exposed and will lose your secrecy reputation.
So what do you think of the espionage/security-based motif? Is it good or not?
2023.03.22 17:42 apsolutions11 I think we are seeing early signs of the terrible twos with our 20mo. What can I do proactively to curb stubborn behaviors or do I just need to buckle up for what’s to come?
My daughter is very sweet overall but we are starting to see some small signs of aggression (maybe not the best word to describe it because it’s not that bad… yet). I assume these behaviors we are starting to see are what people talk about when they mention terrible twos and toddlers being stubborn about getting what they want/not being able to control emotions. Some examples:
LO only gets a pacifier during car rides or in her crib. Yesterday after bringing her in from the car, I pulled the pacifier from her mouth (not aggressively or hard or anything, just the same as any other time when she gives it up no big deal) and she aggressively grabbed/pulled it to have it back on her mouth. She repeated this again a second time until I plucked it from her tiny hands and she cried until I eventually was able to redirect her focus with a toy. In hindsight, I realize I shouldn’t rely on being stronger and overpowering her bc that’s teaching her bad behaviors. Instead, I assume I should ask her to share/hand it to me before we go do XYZ next - but then what do I do when she refuses? Is she too young to “get” this yet?
Similar reactions have happened occasionally when we put away her snacks that she doesn’t want to give up. It hasn’t happened with toys but I assume that’s next.
Another example is throwing food or her sippy cup from her high chair on the ground/toward the dog. It’s obvious she does this for a reaction from us which we try not to give her but she continues to repeat it.
And my wife and I try to say/have consistent messaging to her… that we don’t throw food, food is for LO not for the dog or the floor, sippy cup is heavy and could hurt the dog and we love the dog/don’t want to hurt the dog.
Are these the right ways to handle this or any better advice?
It feels like even if LO can’t fully grasp the concepts of some of what we are saying, we should still continue the messaging so that she understands before long.
I feel dumb even asking this like I should know this already. But honestly it feels like we are still making things up as we go and don’t have ANY idea how to be “good” parents.
Appreciate any wisdom/pro tips from the group!
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LO only gets a pacifier during car rides or in her crib. Yesterday after bringing her in from the car, I pulled the pacifier from her mouth (not aggressively or hard or anything, just the same as any other time when she gives it up no big deal) and she aggressively grabbed/pulled it to have it back on her mouth. She repeated this again a second time until I plucked it from her tiny hands and she cried until I eventually was able to redirect her focus with a toy. In hindsight, I realize I shouldn’t rely on being stronger and overpowering her bc that’s teaching her bad behaviors. Instead, I assume I should ask her to share/hand it to me before we go do XYZ next - but then what do I do when she refuses? Is she too young to “get” this yet?
Similar reactions have happened occasionally when we put away her snacks that she doesn’t want to give up. It hasn’t happened with toys but I assume that’s next.
Another example is throwing food or her sippy cup from her high chair on the ground/toward the dog. It’s obvious she does this for a reaction from us which we try not to give her but she continues to repeat it.
And my wife and I try to say/have consistent messaging to her… that we don’t throw food, food is for LO not for the dog or the floor, sippy cup is heavy and could hurt the dog and we love the dog/don’t want to hurt the dog.
Are these the right ways to handle this or any better advice?
It feels like even if LO can’t fully grasp the concepts of some of what we are saying, we should still continue the messaging so that she understands before long.
I feel dumb even asking this like I should know this already. But honestly it feels like we are still making things up as we go and don’t have ANY idea how to be “good” parents.
Appreciate any wisdom/pro tips from the group!
2023.03.22 17:42 DawnOfLegion1 The new David Finlay is awesome
I really don't understand the hate this dude's been getting, it's bizarre to say the least. "He looks like Jay White !" - so no wrestler had bleached hair, a big beard and black gear before Jay White ? "He shouldn't lead BC" - OK, so a fresh face that's still growing (yet is already very good) is a bad choice for the top spot ?Finlay's new look and overall presentation is killer, his swagger and charisma are drastically improving (trash talking during matches is a nice touch), and thus far, all of his matches have been fun to watch. He does nothing fancy, just hard-hitting, realistic brawls, where Finlay is booked like a badass who can both take and give punishment.
On top of all that, Finlay is very young and has the business in his blood. The guy now has the responsibility of making Bullet Club different again, which is no easy task, but if he keeps the momentum going, Finlay can definitely grow into a solid top heel. It's sad, because the people that are bashing Finlay now are the same people who bashed White himself, Okada, Naito, Evil, and everyone else who was "showed down their throat", yet now they are fans of almost all of those wrestlers. Impatience ain't no virtue, especially in wrestling.
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On top of all that, Finlay is very young and has the business in his blood. The guy now has the responsibility of making Bullet Club different again, which is no easy task, but if he keeps the momentum going, Finlay can definitely grow into a solid top heel. It's sad, because the people that are bashing Finlay now are the same people who bashed White himself, Okada, Naito, Evil, and everyone else who was "showed down their throat", yet now they are fans of almost all of those wrestlers. Impatience ain't no virtue, especially in wrestling.
2023.03.22 17:42 chickenontheroof What do you recommend for my routine?
I use 1.Cerave SA Cleanser everyday (night & day) 2.Cerave moisturizing lotion (everyday, after Cerave SA Cleanser)
When i go outside, i use the Hawaiian satin protection spf 50+ sunscreen (everyday)
Sometimes i skip the lotion after the cleanser and just use the sunscreen because its very moisturizing and i love it on my skin.
My skin is genetically good, i dont have any noticeable black heads and it looks smooth but maybe its because im young.
I was using a cerave hydrating cleanser for a while and it gave me acne on my cheeks (where my "sideburns" are) and around the mouth area, so i stopped using it around a 2 weeks ago and the pimples are going away.
If i have any complaints is that my face feels tight after using cerave SA if i dont immediately moisturize after cleansing, and i noticed that my forehead has started getting some weird very small bumps.
I sometimes get pimples between my eyebrows that never go away, just "hide" under the skin and then reappear every few months.
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When i go outside, i use the Hawaiian satin protection spf 50+ sunscreen (everyday)
Sometimes i skip the lotion after the cleanser and just use the sunscreen because its very moisturizing and i love it on my skin.
My skin is genetically good, i dont have any noticeable black heads and it looks smooth but maybe its because im young.
I was using a cerave hydrating cleanser for a while and it gave me acne on my cheeks (where my "sideburns" are) and around the mouth area, so i stopped using it around a 2 weeks ago and the pimples are going away.
If i have any complaints is that my face feels tight after using cerave SA if i dont immediately moisturize after cleansing, and i noticed that my forehead has started getting some weird very small bumps.
I sometimes get pimples between my eyebrows that never go away, just "hide" under the skin and then reappear every few months.
2023.03.22 17:42 xim4gin3 About me!!
My main acc is my tiktok and my user is ximagin3 and I love making romance stories and my family does know about the acc but I will never tell them my user my brother did follow my acc once so I blocked him lmfao.
-Im 14 almost 15 in Dec. -I have a brother -we have 10 animals (we are going to get rid of 2 cats sadly.)(4 cats,2 bearded dragons,2 dogs,2 leopard geckos) -I love reading Penelope Douglas books and I have yet to read Colleen Hoover books but I’m sure I will like them. -I’m really more like very very very introverted(Ik that’s unhealthy but not for me seeming how most people make me depressed and I’m happier alone<3unless it’s a relationship😉) -yes my mom lets me date but not online dating -I only have a mom (don’t even want a dad oof lol) -as you can tell by the “oof” I play roblox mostly theme park tycoon,bloxburg & activate<3 -l have black hair(really curly) -favorite color is grey along with black and white. -I’m 5,4 1/2 or 5,5 -I’m in 7th I had to repeat 3rd grade😭(I had good grades just failed the fsa bc I got stressed and started marking things in…dumb choice lol.) -I LOVE LOVE ROLLER COASTERS -my fav food is spicy boneless chicken wings -my fav snack is takis (Ik they are bad for you I will make another post about it😭) -I’m homeschooled -my fav chocolate is milk chocolate -my dream car is a Mitsubishi Outlander (not an expensive car lol I don’t like expensive cars that much) -I have maybe 2-3 friends -where’s my enemies to lovers moment???jk😉 ANY THING ELSE YOU WANNA KNOW??
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-Im 14 almost 15 in Dec. -I have a brother -we have 10 animals (we are going to get rid of 2 cats sadly.)(4 cats,2 bearded dragons,2 dogs,2 leopard geckos) -I love reading Penelope Douglas books and I have yet to read Colleen Hoover books but I’m sure I will like them. -I’m really more like very very very introverted(Ik that’s unhealthy but not for me seeming how most people make me depressed and I’m happier alone<3unless it’s a relationship😉) -yes my mom lets me date but not online dating -I only have a mom (don’t even want a dad oof lol) -as you can tell by the “oof” I play roblox mostly theme park tycoon,bloxburg & activate<3 -l have black hair(really curly) -favorite color is grey along with black and white. -I’m 5,4 1/2 or 5,5 -I’m in 7th I had to repeat 3rd grade😭(I had good grades just failed the fsa bc I got stressed and started marking things in…dumb choice lol.) -I LOVE LOVE ROLLER COASTERS -my fav food is spicy boneless chicken wings -my fav snack is takis (Ik they are bad for you I will make another post about it😭) -I’m homeschooled -my fav chocolate is milk chocolate -my dream car is a Mitsubishi Outlander (not an expensive car lol I don’t like expensive cars that much) -I have maybe 2-3 friends -where’s my enemies to lovers moment???jk😉 ANY THING ELSE YOU WANNA KNOW??
about me<3
2023.03.22 17:41 RestaurantStock9069 Guy pulled a nasty and weird stunt on the third meeting
Guy met on Bumble. Texting daily etc had 1st date we kissed passionately. 2nd date we spent the night together and made out heavily but no sex.
He didn't understand why I wouldn't have sex but I said that I would like to get to know him first.
1st date kinda took a weird turn, when we where at the pub kissing and drinking and a guy came to talk to both of us socially. In the middle of the convo, he said he was gonna go out to vape, then I had a conversation with the other guy and when I realised he was absent for a long period of time, he said he was heading home. I asked him why and he said he thinks I'm not interested and sounded pretty drunk. Went to his home and we sat down talking then he poured his heart out and started crying saying he has depression and his ex had an abortion when engaged 5 years ago and he wants to not be single anymore.
We ended up kissing a lot and I went home.
We had 2nd date went to a restaurant where he said to the owner im the love of his life.
We generally had a great night then back to his. Made out, no sex I said we should know each other more. We talked sexually. He asked me why i don't wanna get married and have kids with him. I said we don't know each other. He said he wants to settle down and then proceeded to say he loves me . To that I said I'm sure he doesn't love me as he doesn't really know me but I would love to get to know him and him to be my partner.
Morning also great we had coffee and led up all the week up to St Patrick's day which we said we would spend the weekend together.
The day of the date no text. I texted him and he said he gonna meet me and text him the restaurant address. As the time is approaching and I see he ain't doing nothing, I called him. He sounded pretty drunk on the phone and he said he is working nights and his buttocks off all week and it's Saint Patrick's weekend plus the Irish rugby. I told him I understand but he should let me know. He said come to mine to have sex and spend the night together and get food.
To my surprise I go there and see another guy, a friend of his. Everything is good and he introduced me and then we are left the two of us. He ordered food. By that point he was extremely extremely drunk and I noticed he was about to pass out. I said to him babe, let me get you to bed and get some water for you to drink. I also covered him with a blanket and told him he is not looking good. I caressed his hair and asked him If he feels OK and that I believe we should go to the hospital. He denied everything. When I caressed his hair, I noticed he was wearing a hairpiece as accidentally the lace was revealed.
He immediately corrected it and asked me to leave as he isn't into me and there's no connection . I said that's weird he says that now and asked him when did he decide this. He answered that he isn't into me and to leave. I told him that's fine but regardless I can't just leave him at this state as I care about him. He then asked for sex and told me give me sex then and pushed me towards him. I said baby you aren't looking good and it's not a good idea I can't do that the way you are about to pass out. He did also pass out for a few mins during this whole ordeal and I brought him back.
Then all hell broke loose. He started shouting, became abusive and told me to f off multiple times and get the f outta his place.
The delivery driver witnessed everything and asked me if I'm OK. I made my way back in because I was genuinely concerned and then his neighbours found me. I explained to them what happened and I got some information. The guy hadn't let me know that he lives with the other guy the owner. He gave me the impression he lives by himself.
Also, he never mentioned he wears a hairpiece.
The neighbours were shocked by this behaviour towards me. I thanked them, asked to keep an eye on him as I was concerned and I shoot off. I sent him a last text saying that he has been dishonest to me and all it looks like he wanted was sex and wished him luck.
Didn't hear from him. I wonder if this was love bombing from the start or what his game plan was. He told me the last time while in that state that its his mental health its not good at all and cried. I had mentioned counselling before even me helping him as i have received and it helped me and he didnt react positively. Also to his drinking he kept saying im an Irish man i drink .
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He didn't understand why I wouldn't have sex but I said that I would like to get to know him first.
1st date kinda took a weird turn, when we where at the pub kissing and drinking and a guy came to talk to both of us socially. In the middle of the convo, he said he was gonna go out to vape, then I had a conversation with the other guy and when I realised he was absent for a long period of time, he said he was heading home. I asked him why and he said he thinks I'm not interested and sounded pretty drunk. Went to his home and we sat down talking then he poured his heart out and started crying saying he has depression and his ex had an abortion when engaged 5 years ago and he wants to not be single anymore.
We ended up kissing a lot and I went home.
We had 2nd date went to a restaurant where he said to the owner im the love of his life.
We generally had a great night then back to his. Made out, no sex I said we should know each other more. We talked sexually. He asked me why i don't wanna get married and have kids with him. I said we don't know each other. He said he wants to settle down and then proceeded to say he loves me . To that I said I'm sure he doesn't love me as he doesn't really know me but I would love to get to know him and him to be my partner.
Morning also great we had coffee and led up all the week up to St Patrick's day which we said we would spend the weekend together.
The day of the date no text. I texted him and he said he gonna meet me and text him the restaurant address. As the time is approaching and I see he ain't doing nothing, I called him. He sounded pretty drunk on the phone and he said he is working nights and his buttocks off all week and it's Saint Patrick's weekend plus the Irish rugby. I told him I understand but he should let me know. He said come to mine to have sex and spend the night together and get food.
To my surprise I go there and see another guy, a friend of his. Everything is good and he introduced me and then we are left the two of us. He ordered food. By that point he was extremely extremely drunk and I noticed he was about to pass out. I said to him babe, let me get you to bed and get some water for you to drink. I also covered him with a blanket and told him he is not looking good. I caressed his hair and asked him If he feels OK and that I believe we should go to the hospital. He denied everything. When I caressed his hair, I noticed he was wearing a hairpiece as accidentally the lace was revealed.
He immediately corrected it and asked me to leave as he isn't into me and there's no connection . I said that's weird he says that now and asked him when did he decide this. He answered that he isn't into me and to leave. I told him that's fine but regardless I can't just leave him at this state as I care about him. He then asked for sex and told me give me sex then and pushed me towards him. I said baby you aren't looking good and it's not a good idea I can't do that the way you are about to pass out. He did also pass out for a few mins during this whole ordeal and I brought him back.
Then all hell broke loose. He started shouting, became abusive and told me to f off multiple times and get the f outta his place.
The delivery driver witnessed everything and asked me if I'm OK. I made my way back in because I was genuinely concerned and then his neighbours found me. I explained to them what happened and I got some information. The guy hadn't let me know that he lives with the other guy the owner. He gave me the impression he lives by himself.
Also, he never mentioned he wears a hairpiece.
The neighbours were shocked by this behaviour towards me. I thanked them, asked to keep an eye on him as I was concerned and I shoot off. I sent him a last text saying that he has been dishonest to me and all it looks like he wanted was sex and wished him luck.
Didn't hear from him. I wonder if this was love bombing from the start or what his game plan was. He told me the last time while in that state that its his mental health its not good at all and cried. I had mentioned counselling before even me helping him as i have received and it helped me and he didnt react positively. Also to his drinking he kept saying im an Irish man i drink .
2023.03.22 17:39 Miserable-Fig803 life
I just want to write this down. It'll probably be long. idk.
When I was a kid, say 6-7 years old, I had to watch my mom get hit by dad, and i had to protect my brother from seeing that. I tried to protect my mom, tried standing up for her, but that didn't end well. When they would fight, my mom would come and vent to me while dad left the house to cool off. This was a routine occurance. When I was around 12 years of age, I starting being molested by a person close to my family. This went on for years. And then, my grandfather molested me too. It reduced after a few years. 10 years later, I told my parents about it and we filed a police complaint. Nothing came out of it. I got together with my first boyfriend when i was 15. He left me after 19 days with no explanation. Second boyfriend, would always body shame me and manipulate me. He also physically hurt me once. I was too young to see the red flags i suppose. He left me too. Then, My ex girlfriend, told me no one would have the energy for me after listening to my trauma and left me on a night when i was at my most vulnerable, about to give up on living. So many other people have also let me down, I don't quite have the patience to list it out here I suppose. I'm a good student, yet I got hit by my prof when i didn't do something fast enough. I used to think that maybe it's me, I'm doing something wrong, and that's why no one likes me. Then I would brush it off, because how could that be true? i try to be nice to everyone. But now, I think it's just that. Even though I'm a good person, it's just not in my cards to be loved and understood. I know that now. I just don't know how to accept it, i guess.
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When I was a kid, say 6-7 years old, I had to watch my mom get hit by dad, and i had to protect my brother from seeing that. I tried to protect my mom, tried standing up for her, but that didn't end well. When they would fight, my mom would come and vent to me while dad left the house to cool off. This was a routine occurance. When I was around 12 years of age, I starting being molested by a person close to my family. This went on for years. And then, my grandfather molested me too. It reduced after a few years. 10 years later, I told my parents about it and we filed a police complaint. Nothing came out of it. I got together with my first boyfriend when i was 15. He left me after 19 days with no explanation. Second boyfriend, would always body shame me and manipulate me. He also physically hurt me once. I was too young to see the red flags i suppose. He left me too. Then, My ex girlfriend, told me no one would have the energy for me after listening to my trauma and left me on a night when i was at my most vulnerable, about to give up on living. So many other people have also let me down, I don't quite have the patience to list it out here I suppose. I'm a good student, yet I got hit by my prof when i didn't do something fast enough. I used to think that maybe it's me, I'm doing something wrong, and that's why no one likes me. Then I would brush it off, because how could that be true? i try to be nice to everyone. But now, I think it's just that. Even though I'm a good person, it's just not in my cards to be loved and understood. I know that now. I just don't know how to accept it, i guess.
2023.03.22 17:39 Yappi1486 Romancing Festival Gray, Hawke, Aisha & Barbara Banner Summary
Hi Everyone,
1st time posting a Banner summary here, although I have neen playing for a while.
To summarize:
1) Gray [Is It Me or the Blade?] is a tanky G.Sword attacker. His Passive 1 – Grants 15% damage boost to all surviving G.Sword users.
Passive 2 – recovers +1BP at the end of turn and +2BP at the start of battle.
Passive 3 - High Protect Tension, grants him 30% damage mitigation and 20% damage boost.
Skill 1 – Moon Slash+, C powered All Foes Slash attack.
Skill 2 – Elegant Petals, A powered All Foes Slash + Cold attack.
His main use, will be his Skill 3 – a Fast SSS powered Row Slash + Cold attack. After attacking, Gray enters an Energy Charge stance and starts the countdown (2 counts). The count will decrease by 1 by the end of each turn, and a Fast SSSS Row Slash + Cold attack will be activated on the turn after the count turns 0.
Gray can inherit Waterfowl Blade+ (needs to be amplified) for Column farming, though there are better options like Souji, if you have summoned him previously. He will also be useful for a future Remembrance Battle where he can inherit Secret Three-step from his welfare style to inflict unconsciousness (insta-kill) on mobs.
2) Hawke [Don’t Fear the Storm!] is a powerful Axe attacker. Passive 1 – recovers own HP at start of turn (very small effect).
Passive 2 – grants him 15% damage boost and recovers +2BP at the start of battle.
Passive 3 – grants him 40% damage boost.
Skill 1 – C powered Slash + Blunt Row attack.
Skill 2 – C powered All Foes Slash attack. After attacking, the user enters a defensive counter stance for 1 turn. When hit with a direct attack, Hawk will counter with Savage Slash, a D powered All Foes Slash attack that also buffs all surviving party member’s STR (15% - 25% at max rank 99). Uses skill rank of Skill 2.
Skill 3 – D powered Slash + Blunt Row attack, Grants Hawk Morale Up 40% for 5 turns. An 2nd SS powered Slash + Blunt Row attack is then activated.
One of Hawk’s main strength here is as a turn 1 Row farmer. Very similar to Dantarg [Is No One Strong Enough?!], except the attack attributes are different.
An interesting thing to note is his Skill 2, in which he will gain 35% damage mitigation once he enters into a defensive counter. Whether he will be useful in the upcoming Remembrance Battle with Wuhan remains to be seen, because he will still take damage being in a defensive counter and the mobs accompanying Wuhan can inflict unconsciousness (insta-kill). Note that Hawk himself has no damage mitigation passives.
3) Aisha [Gaining Nisa’s Heart] is now a tanky S.Sword attackedebuffer, though she can still inherit skills from her previous Axe styles.
Passive 1 –
At the end of odd turns counting from the start of battle, recovers own BP (+1).
At the end of even turns counting from the start of battle, recovers own HP (small effect).
This is similar to Real Queen [Devouring Avalon].
Passive 2 - When landing a Weak attack, damage increases further (20%). Recover +1BP at the end of turn.
Passive 3 - High Protect Tension, grants her 30% damage mitigation and 20% damage boost.
Skill 1 – E powered All Foes Pierce + Slash attack (1-2 times).
Skill 2 – A powered All Foes Pierce + Slash attack. When the attack hits, grants the target Morale Down (25%) for 3 turns.
Skill 3 – B powered All Foes Blunt + Pierce attack. When the attack hits, has a medium chance to reduce target’s AGI (15% - 25% at max rank 99), and a medium chance to stun target. ***Note: This is a spell and will require an Earth Element S.Sword.
Notable inherit would be Skydrive+ (amplified) to increase surviving party member's Overdrive gauge, though her main role with this style is to inflict Morale Down to help mitigate damage for the party.
4) Barbara [Let Your Heart Burn] is a Shadow Spear support. Passive 1 – 37% chance to grant surviving party members 20% damage boost at the start of turn.
Passive 2 – recover own HP (very small effect) and buffs own WIL by 15% at the start of turn.
Passive 3 – recover +1BP at the end of turn and gain +2BP at the start of battle.
Skill 1 – recover +4BP
Skill 2 – C powered All Foes Pierce + Shadow attack.
Skill 3 – Fast Support skill that grants all surviving party members Guard Up 25%, defense boost 25% for 2 turns, and increases all surviving allies' status ailments resistances (large effect).
Barbara here can be key in high difficulty content or boss fights with her Skill 3, just need to know that she deals next to no damage.
Overall, Aisha & Barbara may be able to help to mitigate damage for the party if difficult fights.
Good Luck if you are summoning!
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1st time posting a Banner summary here, although I have neen playing for a while.
To summarize:
1) Gray [Is It Me or the Blade?] is a tanky G.Sword attacker. His Passive 1 – Grants 15% damage boost to all surviving G.Sword users.
Passive 2 – recovers +1BP at the end of turn and +2BP at the start of battle.
Passive 3 - High Protect Tension, grants him 30% damage mitigation and 20% damage boost.
Skill 1 – Moon Slash+, C powered All Foes Slash attack.
Skill 2 – Elegant Petals, A powered All Foes Slash + Cold attack.
His main use, will be his Skill 3 – a Fast SSS powered Row Slash + Cold attack. After attacking, Gray enters an Energy Charge stance and starts the countdown (2 counts). The count will decrease by 1 by the end of each turn, and a Fast SSSS Row Slash + Cold attack will be activated on the turn after the count turns 0.
Gray can inherit Waterfowl Blade+ (needs to be amplified) for Column farming, though there are better options like Souji, if you have summoned him previously. He will also be useful for a future Remembrance Battle where he can inherit Secret Three-step from his welfare style to inflict unconsciousness (insta-kill) on mobs.
2) Hawke [Don’t Fear the Storm!] is a powerful Axe attacker. Passive 1 – recovers own HP at start of turn (very small effect).
Passive 2 – grants him 15% damage boost and recovers +2BP at the start of battle.
Passive 3 – grants him 40% damage boost.
Skill 1 – C powered Slash + Blunt Row attack.
Skill 2 – C powered All Foes Slash attack. After attacking, the user enters a defensive counter stance for 1 turn. When hit with a direct attack, Hawk will counter with Savage Slash, a D powered All Foes Slash attack that also buffs all surviving party member’s STR (15% - 25% at max rank 99). Uses skill rank of Skill 2.
Skill 3 – D powered Slash + Blunt Row attack, Grants Hawk Morale Up 40% for 5 turns. An 2nd SS powered Slash + Blunt Row attack is then activated.
One of Hawk’s main strength here is as a turn 1 Row farmer. Very similar to Dantarg [Is No One Strong Enough?!], except the attack attributes are different.
An interesting thing to note is his Skill 2, in which he will gain 35% damage mitigation once he enters into a defensive counter. Whether he will be useful in the upcoming Remembrance Battle with Wuhan remains to be seen, because he will still take damage being in a defensive counter and the mobs accompanying Wuhan can inflict unconsciousness (insta-kill). Note that Hawk himself has no damage mitigation passives.
3) Aisha [Gaining Nisa’s Heart] is now a tanky S.Sword attackedebuffer, though she can still inherit skills from her previous Axe styles.
Passive 1 –
At the end of odd turns counting from the start of battle, recovers own BP (+1).
At the end of even turns counting from the start of battle, recovers own HP (small effect).
This is similar to Real Queen [Devouring Avalon].
Passive 2 - When landing a Weak attack, damage increases further (20%). Recover +1BP at the end of turn.
Passive 3 - High Protect Tension, grants her 30% damage mitigation and 20% damage boost.
Skill 1 – E powered All Foes Pierce + Slash attack (1-2 times).
Skill 2 – A powered All Foes Pierce + Slash attack. When the attack hits, grants the target Morale Down (25%) for 3 turns.
Skill 3 – B powered All Foes Blunt + Pierce attack. When the attack hits, has a medium chance to reduce target’s AGI (15% - 25% at max rank 99), and a medium chance to stun target. ***Note: This is a spell and will require an Earth Element S.Sword.
Notable inherit would be Skydrive+ (amplified) to increase surviving party member's Overdrive gauge, though her main role with this style is to inflict Morale Down to help mitigate damage for the party.
4) Barbara [Let Your Heart Burn] is a Shadow Spear support. Passive 1 – 37% chance to grant surviving party members 20% damage boost at the start of turn.
Passive 2 – recover own HP (very small effect) and buffs own WIL by 15% at the start of turn.
Passive 3 – recover +1BP at the end of turn and gain +2BP at the start of battle.
Skill 1 – recover +4BP
Skill 2 – C powered All Foes Pierce + Shadow attack.
Skill 3 – Fast Support skill that grants all surviving party members Guard Up 25%, defense boost 25% for 2 turns, and increases all surviving allies' status ailments resistances (large effect).
Barbara here can be key in high difficulty content or boss fights with her Skill 3, just need to know that she deals next to no damage.
Overall, Aisha & Barbara may be able to help to mitigate damage for the party if difficult fights.
Good Luck if you are summoning!
2023.03.22 17:39 CoopedUp00 Looking for Clothing/Appearance Mods
Hello Chooms,
I know it's been a while but after seeing some of the stunning images of some people's V I decided to take the time to update my 100+ mods and reboot the game for a walk around Night City.
The downside is that with the new System-EX wardrobe system, the "Wraith Hood with Hair" skin replacer I was using has a bit of a problem. When walking around in FP-Mode the stitching for the hood is plainly visible.
Does anyone know of any good hoods, cowls, or coats that can achieve the same results without affecting the view in FP-Mode?
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I know it's been a while but after seeing some of the stunning images of some people's V I decided to take the time to update my 100+ mods and reboot the game for a walk around Night City.
The downside is that with the new System-EX wardrobe system, the "Wraith Hood with Hair" skin replacer I was using has a bit of a problem. When walking around in FP-Mode the stitching for the hood is plainly visible.
Does anyone know of any good hoods, cowls, or coats that can achieve the same results without affecting the view in FP-Mode?
2023.03.22 17:38 GenuinelyUseless Keeping board in car while surfing?
I have to drive an hour to the beach to surf, and there are no good cams to check conditions. I'd like to be able to take a few boards and pick the best one, but I'm worried about storing a board in a hot car for a few hours while I'm surfing.
Weather is tropical so it will get hot. Will a bag help keep temps down? Any tips to minimize heat damage?
Current method isn't sustainable. Do you know how much lube it takes to cover an entire board? Plus it throws off my balance.
Thanks
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Weather is tropical so it will get hot. Will a bag help keep temps down? Any tips to minimize heat damage?
Current method isn't sustainable. Do you know how much lube it takes to cover an entire board? Plus it throws off my balance.
Thanks
2023.03.22 17:37 No-Distribution-261 Opinions about this bedtime stories generated by AI
Hi everyone! I've let AI write for me two original bedtime stories for my children that i believe are really good. Each story also comes with a lesson.
So I would love to hear your thoughts. Maybe you could read one them to your children!!
If you liked the stories, at the bottom of the post there is a google form where you can send me your email and i will send you some other stories
Toby the Elephant and Wido the Spider's Adventure
Once upon a time, in the dense forests of Africa, there lived a gentle elephant named Toby. Toby had big floppy ears, a long trunk, and a pair of sharp tusks. He loved to spend his days munching on juicy leaves, taking refreshing dips in the nearby river, and playing with his elephant friends.
One day, while Toby was enjoying a lazy afternoon by the river, he noticed a tiny spider named Wido trying to climb up his trunk. "Hey, what are you doing up there?" asked Toby, surprised.
"I'm trying to get to the top of your head to see the view from up there," replied Wido, determinedly.
Toby chuckled. "Well, I can give you a lift if you want."
"Oh, that would be wonderful," said Wido, with a big smile.
Toby carefully lifted Wido with his trunk and placed him on his head. Wido was delighted to see the world from a different perspective, and Toby enjoyed having a new friend to talk to.
As they were admiring the view, they noticed a group of animals in the distance, running frantically. "What's going on over there?" asked Toby, concerned.
Wido squinted her eight tiny eyes. "It looks like they're running away from something."
Without wasting a moment, Toby and Wido rushed to see what was happening. As they got closer, they saw that the animals were being chased by a fierce lion.
"We have to help them," said Toby, bravely.
Wido nodded in agreement. "But how? We're just an elephant and a spider."
Toby looked around and saw a nearby tree with a beehive hanging from its branch. He got an idea. "Wido, do you know how to weave a web?"
"Yes, I do," replied Wido, intrigued.
"Good. We'll use the honey from that beehive to lure the lion away from the other animals, and then you'll weave a web to trap him," explained Toby.
Wido was impressed. "That's a brilliant plan!"
Toby and Wido quickly put their plan into action. Toby broke the beehive with his trunk, and the sweet smell of honey attracted the lion's attention. The lion chased after Toby, while Wido quickly weaved a web in front of him. The lion got trapped in the web, and the other animals were safe.
Toby and Wido looked at each other, proud of what they had accomplished. "We did it!" said Toby, grinning.
Wido smiled. "We make a great team."
As they walked back home, they realized that even though they were different, they had worked together to solve a big problem. "We never have to lose faith in ourselves or each other," said Toby, wise words that he had learned from his wise old grandmother.
Wido nodded. "That's right. With faith, we can accomplish anything."
And so, Toby the Elephant and Wido the Spider's adventure ended, but their friendship continued to grow stronger with each passing day. From that day on, they knew that they could always count on each other, no matter what.
Kyle and Katie's Big Adventure
Once upon a time, there was a boy named Kyle. He was a shy and quiet boy who didn't have many friends. Kyle was always nervous about talking to new people and making friends. He attended a school called Bright Minds Academy. It was a big school with a lot of students, but Kyle always felt like he was alone.
One day, while Kyle was exploring the school's library, he stumbled upon a book about outer space. He was fascinated by the book and started reading it. As he was reading, he heard a voice behind him.
"Hey, that's a cool book!" said the voice.
Kyle turned around and saw a girl named Katie. She had bright blue eyes and curly brown hair.
"Y-yeah," stammered Kyle. "I-I like space."
"Me too!" said Katie. "I'm Katie, by the way. What's your name?"
"I'm Kyle," replied Kyle, feeling a bit more comfortable now that he had met someone who shared his interests.
From that day on, Kyle and Katie became friends. They spent their free time exploring the school and learning new things together. One day, while they were exploring the school's basement, they found a secret door. Curious, they opened the door and found a dark room with a mysterious machine in the center.
"Wow, this is so cool!" exclaimed Katie.
"I don't know," said Kyle nervously. "This looks dangerous."
But before Kyle could say anything else, Katie pressed a button on the machine. Suddenly, the room started to shake, and Kyle and Katie were transported to outer space!
"Woah, this is amazing!" said Katie, looking out of the window at the stars.
But then, they saw a giant asteroid heading towards their spaceship.
"Oh no, what do we do?" cried Kyle.
"I don't know," said Katie, looking scared.
But then, Kyle remembered what he had learned from his space book. He told Katie to help him steer the ship towards the asteroid and to press a button at the right moment.
Together, Kyle and Katie worked to steer the ship towards the asteroid and press the button. They succeeded, and the asteroid was destroyed!
"Wow, we did it!" exclaimed Katie.
"Yeah, we make a great team!" said Kyle, smiling.
As they flew back to earth, Kyle realized that he had made a new friend and that he didn't have to be afraid of making friends anymore. He was grateful for Katie and the adventure they had shared.
The End.
If these stories interested you, follow the link bellow, give us your email and fill out the Google form. I'll send you additional stories!!!
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So I would love to hear your thoughts. Maybe you could read one them to your children!!
If you liked the stories, at the bottom of the post there is a google form where you can send me your email and i will send you some other stories
Toby the Elephant and Wido the Spider's Adventure
Once upon a time, in the dense forests of Africa, there lived a gentle elephant named Toby. Toby had big floppy ears, a long trunk, and a pair of sharp tusks. He loved to spend his days munching on juicy leaves, taking refreshing dips in the nearby river, and playing with his elephant friends.
One day, while Toby was enjoying a lazy afternoon by the river, he noticed a tiny spider named Wido trying to climb up his trunk. "Hey, what are you doing up there?" asked Toby, surprised.
"I'm trying to get to the top of your head to see the view from up there," replied Wido, determinedly.
Toby chuckled. "Well, I can give you a lift if you want."
"Oh, that would be wonderful," said Wido, with a big smile.
Toby carefully lifted Wido with his trunk and placed him on his head. Wido was delighted to see the world from a different perspective, and Toby enjoyed having a new friend to talk to.
As they were admiring the view, they noticed a group of animals in the distance, running frantically. "What's going on over there?" asked Toby, concerned.
Wido squinted her eight tiny eyes. "It looks like they're running away from something."
Without wasting a moment, Toby and Wido rushed to see what was happening. As they got closer, they saw that the animals were being chased by a fierce lion.
"We have to help them," said Toby, bravely.
Wido nodded in agreement. "But how? We're just an elephant and a spider."
Toby looked around and saw a nearby tree with a beehive hanging from its branch. He got an idea. "Wido, do you know how to weave a web?"
"Yes, I do," replied Wido, intrigued.
"Good. We'll use the honey from that beehive to lure the lion away from the other animals, and then you'll weave a web to trap him," explained Toby.
Wido was impressed. "That's a brilliant plan!"
Toby and Wido quickly put their plan into action. Toby broke the beehive with his trunk, and the sweet smell of honey attracted the lion's attention. The lion chased after Toby, while Wido quickly weaved a web in front of him. The lion got trapped in the web, and the other animals were safe.
Toby and Wido looked at each other, proud of what they had accomplished. "We did it!" said Toby, grinning.
Wido smiled. "We make a great team."
As they walked back home, they realized that even though they were different, they had worked together to solve a big problem. "We never have to lose faith in ourselves or each other," said Toby, wise words that he had learned from his wise old grandmother.
Wido nodded. "That's right. With faith, we can accomplish anything."
And so, Toby the Elephant and Wido the Spider's adventure ended, but their friendship continued to grow stronger with each passing day. From that day on, they knew that they could always count on each other, no matter what.
Kyle and Katie's Big Adventure
Once upon a time, there was a boy named Kyle. He was a shy and quiet boy who didn't have many friends. Kyle was always nervous about talking to new people and making friends. He attended a school called Bright Minds Academy. It was a big school with a lot of students, but Kyle always felt like he was alone.
One day, while Kyle was exploring the school's library, he stumbled upon a book about outer space. He was fascinated by the book and started reading it. As he was reading, he heard a voice behind him.
"Hey, that's a cool book!" said the voice.
Kyle turned around and saw a girl named Katie. She had bright blue eyes and curly brown hair.
"Y-yeah," stammered Kyle. "I-I like space."
"Me too!" said Katie. "I'm Katie, by the way. What's your name?"
"I'm Kyle," replied Kyle, feeling a bit more comfortable now that he had met someone who shared his interests.
From that day on, Kyle and Katie became friends. They spent their free time exploring the school and learning new things together. One day, while they were exploring the school's basement, they found a secret door. Curious, they opened the door and found a dark room with a mysterious machine in the center.
"Wow, this is so cool!" exclaimed Katie.
"I don't know," said Kyle nervously. "This looks dangerous."
But before Kyle could say anything else, Katie pressed a button on the machine. Suddenly, the room started to shake, and Kyle and Katie were transported to outer space!
"Woah, this is amazing!" said Katie, looking out of the window at the stars.
But then, they saw a giant asteroid heading towards their spaceship.
"Oh no, what do we do?" cried Kyle.
"I don't know," said Katie, looking scared.
But then, Kyle remembered what he had learned from his space book. He told Katie to help him steer the ship towards the asteroid and to press a button at the right moment.
Together, Kyle and Katie worked to steer the ship towards the asteroid and press the button. They succeeded, and the asteroid was destroyed!
"Wow, we did it!" exclaimed Katie.
"Yeah, we make a great team!" said Kyle, smiling.
As they flew back to earth, Kyle realized that he had made a new friend and that he didn't have to be afraid of making friends anymore. He was grateful for Katie and the adventure they had shared.
The End.
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2023.03.22 17:35 ohheysarahjay Dad.
I’m sitting in the room you used to walk through to go out and smoke. This was also the door I walked through when I saw you lying there, screaming, dying. And I’m so angry at you for that.
I can never let that moment go. The garden felt so big, you felt miles away when you were only steps in front of me, but I couldn’t get to you. I was terrified. I have never been so scared in my entire life, from the one person who always protected me. You were supposed to be here. You were supposed to become a chef. You were supposed to leave your past behind and really live, and I wish you could see the amount of potential you had through my eyes. You wasted it forever, and I’m mad.
I am so proud of you. Being a father isn’t easy when you never had one to teach you, and you did a fucking good job, despite what we went through. Again, I was, and am, so proud of you. I hope you made peace with him, wherever you may be, and I hope he knows you kicked his ass at being a dad, and he will never live it down, even if he’s not alive today.
I’m really struggling without you, daily. I have all this love and nowhere to put it, and it just turns into sadness instead. I wish you knew for certain how much I love you, I wish you believed me when you asked if I did. I wish you sat on my bed and cried more, that we cried together more, because life is so hard and you deserved so much better.
I wish I wasn’t so bitter, and I tried my best to hide it, but you really hurt me. I understand addiction, I watched you take so many pills, I watched you drink too many drinks, I watched you gamble everything that we had, and I still knew you were sick, you were trying to heal wounds the wrong way, and I learnt from that. I thank you for these mistakes so I don’t repeat them. I try so hard not to repeat them, but it’s in my blood, and I’ll fight it forever.
I’ll never forget the goodness you left in this world, and I learnt the most from that. I’m a better person because of you and the example you set with how you treated others. You have the most beautiful heart, both you and mom, and I’m so angry that yours has stopped beating.
I was never supposed to fix this, but I wish every day that I could’ve. I’ve over analysed every possible way I could’ve saved you, even knowing that I never could, because I know nothing was going to save me when I was in your shoes.
I hope granny holds you tight every day, I hope she still sings, I hope that you have your grampa back, and I hope that you’re at peace.
Thank you for still leaving me signs that you’re around, I look for them everywhere. My heart will always be broken. A daughters first love is her father, and you broke my heart forever. I’m angry that this pain will never go away, but I also don’t want it to, because you deserve to be with me in every way.
I can’t look at old photos, because it just feels like lost innocence. I am not the same person I was before I lost you. I have lost friends, I have concerned family, I have said and done so much that I would never have thought to do if you were still here, and I still can’t figure out if that’s a good or a bad thing. I can’t figure out where my puzzle piece fits because you threw the entire thing off of the table. Where do you go when the worst thing that could happen actually happens? What am I supposed to do? Why can’t you come back and tell me it was a mistake and that you’re sorry and you make us burgers and we watch gameshows. Why can’t we just work together to build our house back because we already had a home with you. Now I don’t know where my home is anymore.
You made me aware that pain is tangible, because I feel it all over my body. My chest hurts when I think of the past. My body hurts when that wave of grief hits. The only thing that saves me is sleep, and sometimes I wish I won’t wake up. I wish that more than I’d like to admit, even to this day. I know you want me to wake up though.
People have hurt me, badly. And I’m angry that you’re not there to break the legs of the men who have caused me pain with that anger you struggled to control. An anger that terrified me and made life a living hell sometimes, but an anger that kept me safe. You said and did a lot of dumb shit, and I’m sure you hold yourself accountable now, and I know you did when the apologies did come. I hope you hold yourself accountable for the amount of pain and destruction the last stupid thing you did caused all of us. I still love you. And I hope you’d still love me through my own dumb shit. I think you would’ve, we’re very much the same.
I don’t feel like I can write enough to match how I feel about everything that’s happened since you passed, and the years that lead up to that. It’s all a haze, to be honest. It’s like a war zone in my mind and the only thing that sticks out through the ground is your gravestone. Everything else left with you. You are the biggest blessing, and the strongest tornado. I will never stop telling your story.
I’m now sitting in the garden where I last saw you alive. It’s a quiet evening. Courage is calm, for once. Mom is having church in the lounge surrounded by people who love her, and that brings me so much peace. I know they love you too. I miss you. I love you. I’ll write again soon.
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I can never let that moment go. The garden felt so big, you felt miles away when you were only steps in front of me, but I couldn’t get to you. I was terrified. I have never been so scared in my entire life, from the one person who always protected me. You were supposed to be here. You were supposed to become a chef. You were supposed to leave your past behind and really live, and I wish you could see the amount of potential you had through my eyes. You wasted it forever, and I’m mad.
I am so proud of you. Being a father isn’t easy when you never had one to teach you, and you did a fucking good job, despite what we went through. Again, I was, and am, so proud of you. I hope you made peace with him, wherever you may be, and I hope he knows you kicked his ass at being a dad, and he will never live it down, even if he’s not alive today.
I’m really struggling without you, daily. I have all this love and nowhere to put it, and it just turns into sadness instead. I wish you knew for certain how much I love you, I wish you believed me when you asked if I did. I wish you sat on my bed and cried more, that we cried together more, because life is so hard and you deserved so much better.
I wish I wasn’t so bitter, and I tried my best to hide it, but you really hurt me. I understand addiction, I watched you take so many pills, I watched you drink too many drinks, I watched you gamble everything that we had, and I still knew you were sick, you were trying to heal wounds the wrong way, and I learnt from that. I thank you for these mistakes so I don’t repeat them. I try so hard not to repeat them, but it’s in my blood, and I’ll fight it forever.
I’ll never forget the goodness you left in this world, and I learnt the most from that. I’m a better person because of you and the example you set with how you treated others. You have the most beautiful heart, both you and mom, and I’m so angry that yours has stopped beating.
I was never supposed to fix this, but I wish every day that I could’ve. I’ve over analysed every possible way I could’ve saved you, even knowing that I never could, because I know nothing was going to save me when I was in your shoes.
I hope granny holds you tight every day, I hope she still sings, I hope that you have your grampa back, and I hope that you’re at peace.
Thank you for still leaving me signs that you’re around, I look for them everywhere. My heart will always be broken. A daughters first love is her father, and you broke my heart forever. I’m angry that this pain will never go away, but I also don’t want it to, because you deserve to be with me in every way.
I can’t look at old photos, because it just feels like lost innocence. I am not the same person I was before I lost you. I have lost friends, I have concerned family, I have said and done so much that I would never have thought to do if you were still here, and I still can’t figure out if that’s a good or a bad thing. I can’t figure out where my puzzle piece fits because you threw the entire thing off of the table. Where do you go when the worst thing that could happen actually happens? What am I supposed to do? Why can’t you come back and tell me it was a mistake and that you’re sorry and you make us burgers and we watch gameshows. Why can’t we just work together to build our house back because we already had a home with you. Now I don’t know where my home is anymore.
You made me aware that pain is tangible, because I feel it all over my body. My chest hurts when I think of the past. My body hurts when that wave of grief hits. The only thing that saves me is sleep, and sometimes I wish I won’t wake up. I wish that more than I’d like to admit, even to this day. I know you want me to wake up though.
People have hurt me, badly. And I’m angry that you’re not there to break the legs of the men who have caused me pain with that anger you struggled to control. An anger that terrified me and made life a living hell sometimes, but an anger that kept me safe. You said and did a lot of dumb shit, and I’m sure you hold yourself accountable now, and I know you did when the apologies did come. I hope you hold yourself accountable for the amount of pain and destruction the last stupid thing you did caused all of us. I still love you. And I hope you’d still love me through my own dumb shit. I think you would’ve, we’re very much the same.
I don’t feel like I can write enough to match how I feel about everything that’s happened since you passed, and the years that lead up to that. It’s all a haze, to be honest. It’s like a war zone in my mind and the only thing that sticks out through the ground is your gravestone. Everything else left with you. You are the biggest blessing, and the strongest tornado. I will never stop telling your story.
I’m now sitting in the garden where I last saw you alive. It’s a quiet evening. Courage is calm, for once. Mom is having church in the lounge surrounded by people who love her, and that brings me so much peace. I know they love you too. I miss you. I love you. I’ll write again soon.
2023.03.22 17:32 United-Swordfish-799 Can I darken my highlights and get close to my natural colour?
 | I started having my brown hair highlighted about a decade ago as a way to brighten it up and blend in the few greys I was getting. The darker picture was taken about 10 years ago. Fast-forward to now, and the highlights are much blonder and I'm not loving it on myself. submitted by United-Swordfish-799 to Hair [link] [comments] I was going to a stylist for around 2 years who was really into me going blonder and blonder, which I know is a good way to blend in grey. But I really don't feel like the lighter blonde is "me" and it even washes my complexion out a little. He was stubborn about it (1), so I changed stylists again recently. The new one seemed to understand what I wanted, but still kept me pretty blonde. He said he needed to, especially in the front where I have a bit more grey. tldr: is there a foolproof way to slightly deepen my highlights and move my hair closer to it's natural, darker color? Can I blend in or cover grey with a darker color, or am i resigned to being blonde? Hair 10 years ago Hair today Hair today |
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2023.03.22 17:31 Verrgasm Clubbing
"Why won't you come with me?" Andrea's voice whined down the phone in the tone she always adopted when she wasn't getting her way. "C'mon… please? Everyone else is busy..."
"I already told you, I'm not going back to another one of your shitty dive clubs. Remember last time when I nearly got my eye gouged out in the moshpit? I had to take a week off work."
"So what if you got your bell rung for the first time, you really want to die without any scars? Besides, do you have any idea how hard it was to get these tickets? I had to pay some random street guy double just to get us in the door."
"Well, what's the big deal about this place, then? Why's it so exclusive?"
"Suck Shaft."
"What?"
"Suck Shaft, they're opening. Headliner's some local hick but everyone's going to see Suck Shaft, it's their first gig in like ten years or something. How in the fuck have you never heard of Suck Shaft?"
"Andrea, can you please stop saying 'Suck Shaft' for a minute… let me think…"
"Look, are you coming or not? We'll be in and out in two hours, Tom, I promise. You'll be no worse off for work tomorrow, might even have something interesting to say around the water cooler, ay?"
"Fine... As long as we're only staying for the opener."
"Great! Pick me up at six."
beep
I pulled up outside Andrea's house to find her sitting impatiently on the doorstep and she eagerly bounded over and hopped inside.
"Are you as excited as I am?!" She asked giddily, looking at me with her make-up-caked face. She presented two little white tickets and passed one over. "This is gonna be a night to remember!"
"Yeah, whatever… Two hours, then I'm going home, so don't fuck around, okay?" I put the car in gear and departed from the pavement. "I mean it, Andrea. I can't mess up with this job right now."
"Jeeeez, you're such a stick in the mud…" She groaned dramatically as her eyes rolled back into her head.
As we drove slowly down the decrepit street which was home to the run-down venue I was immediately shocked at just how busy it really was. A swarm of patrons all waiting to get inside mobbed the sidewalk and spilled over into the street. After a tedious fifteen minutes of creeping around, I eventually managed to squeeze the car into a tiny space two streets over.
It was freezing but I gave Andrea my jacket anyway after catching a few passive aggressive 'brrrrr's' as we walked side-by-side to the club.
"Why didn't you just bring your own coat?"
"Well, I didn't know we'd have to park like a hundred fucking miles away, did I?"
"What if it's cold inside? You consider that one, genius?"
"We won't be cold for very long," She shot me a sly wink as she dug into her back pocket and held up a baggie containing two tiny pills stamped with a smiling alien. "Roll with me?"
I looked into her big green pleading puppy dog eyes and found myself unable to say no. That and it had been a while since I'd gotten my hands on some decent ecstasy. Andrea always got good X.
"I'll take half. Remember I still have to get us both home in one piece after this." I said in a defeated voice, but secretly I was excited for the first time that day.
"Yay!" Andrea hopped up and clicked the heels of her Nikes at me. "This is gonna be great!"
She pulled the bag open and bit half a pill, handing me the other half. Then, without any hesitation, she slammed the other full one down too before flashing her tongue at me the way I imagine they make the patients do at mental hospitals after med time.
"For fuck's sake, Andrea. Really? You said two hours. In two hours' time you're gonna be completely gone, I'll probably have to carry you through the dance floor, prise your fingers off the stage just to get you out the door with me."
"A promise is a promise." She booped my nose condescendingly the way you might a small child. I always hated when she did that, endearing as it was. "When it's over, it's over. I won't hold you back."
"I hope not." I'd gotten the pill down quickly, but that bitter taste still permeated the surface of my tongue and a little at the back of my throat. "I really hope not..."
We rounded the corner and joined the back of the line and found ourselves relieved that it was moving relatively quickly. I stood on my toes and got a decent look at the action up front. The bouncer wasn't even really checking the tickets, just a nod in acknowledgement at whatever random white paper was being presented. This prompted me to check the one in my pocket.
It was riddled with typos. I held it up to Andrea and she looked at me as if I was from Mars.
"What?"
"You paid double for fake tickets?"
"Yeah, so what? They'll get us in, won't they?"
"Jesus, Andrea. I swear, two hours and then we're leaving. Okay? This is gonna be a nightmare to get away from, look how busy this fucking street is, it's all because of these fake ticket scalping fucks..."
The ecstasy had begun to take effect and I couldn't help but feel a little shame for just how hard my half a pill was already kicking my ass. I looked over at Andrea for the first time since we'd joined the queue, of which was quickly packed behind us as we gradually approached the front, boxing us in. She was chewing voraciously at her bottom lip. I put my arm around her shoulder reassuringly and she turned to me with her big wobbly pupils. The vibrant green of her irises almost obscured by them.
"We will get in, right? Won't we?" She asked with a sort of desperation that I understood. I'd had a 'bad' X trip before when my plans got cancelled and I'd taken too much, ended up milling around my apartment hugging pillows and gnawing at my toothbrush. I pictured Andrea disappointedly sitting on her couch while she ferociously stroked her cat with hardstyle blasting through her TV speakers.
"Yeah, I think we'll get in. Don't worry." She pulled me closer to her and we embraced. Usually that took an hour or two but the clear overdose had ramped up the process. "Are you sure you're okay to go in here? You shouldn't have done all that at once."
"Oh, y-yeah" She chattered at me through her clenched teeth. She broke away for a second and yelled into the crowd behind us.
"SUCK SHAFT! WOOO!"
She was met with a rallying cry of about two dozen other people who were also prematurely wasted. With a pleased giggle she took my arm again and snuggled in, which was a relief because it was so damn cold on that sidewalk. We got close to the front and I whispered into Andrea's ear.
"Look, just keep your head down and don't look at the bouncer. If he sees how fucked up you are he won't let us in, okay?"
"Okey-doke…"
"Gimme your ticket."
I took her ticket and approached the big man by the door as Andrea half-hid behind me. No words were exchanged, barely even a look. He grabbed our tickets, and in we went.
"Here's your jacket back." Andrea thrust my knockoff leather jacket towards me and I put it back on, knowing that it'd eventually just become a hindrance in the heat. I followed closely behind as we descended the sickly white painted concrete stairwell, already littered with cigarette butts and empty bottles and vomit possibly from the night before. The music was getting louder as we got closer to the underground set. Thick swathes of bass resonated in the walls and in the floor and the ceiling and I felt myself come alive.
The stairs ended after a few turns and Andrea took my hand and led me into the packed crowd, all moving sinuously to the beat. I felt a jab in my ribs but I didn't care. We were somewhere close to the stage, but I couldn't tell where. My vision flickered and moved with my body as I danced with Andrea, every so often taking an accidental shove from a stranger and giving out a few of my own. That moment, I don't know how long it lasted, but it was the last time I was ever truly happy.
I brushed it off at first, something being shouted that looking back, I know must have been 'fire'. I just didn't want to believe it. Then, when the dancefloor broke its rhythm and people began to push into us towards the exit, I realized what was happening. Andrea looked into my eyes and I could see she knew it too, that rapturous joy snuffed out by terror. When the real world creeps into the fantasies we use to escape, turning them foul forever.
The music was still blaring, but the stage was empty. Smoke trickled out from behind it. Screams began to overtake the bass as people crammed in beside us, all running in the same direction. The lit single door exitway was in near darkness spare a few gaps that weren't full of people squeezing through. It was utter chaos.
All around us the ones who'd fallen over were stepped on in the scramble, I could hear their bones snapping under the weight of frantic footfalls and their pained reactions as they gasped their last breaths before giving in. Several men and women were actively shoving people back, throwing elbows and punches with others retaliating and then succumbing to the trampling themselves. We managed to reach the exit door leading to the stairs, but as I squeezed myself through Andrea's wrist got caught in the doorframe and was shattered by the incoming horde pushing through the cramped doorway three at a time. She screamed, shrieked out, and then was lost. I didn't look back, I was overcome with an unbearable rage. I stood in that doorway and I kicked out hard, knocking at least a dozen people back into the club, which was now entirely ablaze as flames engulfed the stage rendered near invisible by the thick black smoke.
I wasn't giving anything close to a fuck. I jerked my elbows into noses, I yanked back two womem ahead of me and they tumbled backwards down the stairs into the fiery oblivion below. I kicked and I punched and I shoved and I think I even bit a guy at one point, until eventually, I managed to wriggle through the open door and into the night air as sirens screeched down the street towards the scene. I looked back over my shoulder at the carnage as other escapees of the blaze rushed past me to safety. I did too, except I didn't stop running.
I got in my car and I drove home.
Fifty-three people died in that club that night. Seventy were injured, many in ways that'll surely have made their lives a living hell since. Andrea. I'm not sure if Andrea died in the crush or under some fucker's boot or if the smoke got her, or the fire. All I know is that she didn't make it. I just hope it was quick. Oh, fuck, how I hope it was quick... I look back and it's like I can see her lying there by that jammed up door with her wrist all bent backwards with the bone sticking out while she pleads, begs, the other people there to help her. Everyone ignored her. I ignored her.
I don't like to think about it. I can't. So I don't. I moved away. Nobody knows I was there, or what I did. I know I'll never forget it, though. I know that I'll never forgive myself.
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"I already told you, I'm not going back to another one of your shitty dive clubs. Remember last time when I nearly got my eye gouged out in the moshpit? I had to take a week off work."
"So what if you got your bell rung for the first time, you really want to die without any scars? Besides, do you have any idea how hard it was to get these tickets? I had to pay some random street guy double just to get us in the door."
"Well, what's the big deal about this place, then? Why's it so exclusive?"
"Suck Shaft."
"What?"
"Suck Shaft, they're opening. Headliner's some local hick but everyone's going to see Suck Shaft, it's their first gig in like ten years or something. How in the fuck have you never heard of Suck Shaft?"
"Andrea, can you please stop saying 'Suck Shaft' for a minute… let me think…"
"Look, are you coming or not? We'll be in and out in two hours, Tom, I promise. You'll be no worse off for work tomorrow, might even have something interesting to say around the water cooler, ay?"
"Fine... As long as we're only staying for the opener."
"Great! Pick me up at six."
beep
I pulled up outside Andrea's house to find her sitting impatiently on the doorstep and she eagerly bounded over and hopped inside.
"Are you as excited as I am?!" She asked giddily, looking at me with her make-up-caked face. She presented two little white tickets and passed one over. "This is gonna be a night to remember!"
"Yeah, whatever… Two hours, then I'm going home, so don't fuck around, okay?" I put the car in gear and departed from the pavement. "I mean it, Andrea. I can't mess up with this job right now."
"Jeeeez, you're such a stick in the mud…" She groaned dramatically as her eyes rolled back into her head.
As we drove slowly down the decrepit street which was home to the run-down venue I was immediately shocked at just how busy it really was. A swarm of patrons all waiting to get inside mobbed the sidewalk and spilled over into the street. After a tedious fifteen minutes of creeping around, I eventually managed to squeeze the car into a tiny space two streets over.
It was freezing but I gave Andrea my jacket anyway after catching a few passive aggressive 'brrrrr's' as we walked side-by-side to the club.
"Why didn't you just bring your own coat?"
"Well, I didn't know we'd have to park like a hundred fucking miles away, did I?"
"What if it's cold inside? You consider that one, genius?"
"We won't be cold for very long," She shot me a sly wink as she dug into her back pocket and held up a baggie containing two tiny pills stamped with a smiling alien. "Roll with me?"
I looked into her big green pleading puppy dog eyes and found myself unable to say no. That and it had been a while since I'd gotten my hands on some decent ecstasy. Andrea always got good X.
"I'll take half. Remember I still have to get us both home in one piece after this." I said in a defeated voice, but secretly I was excited for the first time that day.
"Yay!" Andrea hopped up and clicked the heels of her Nikes at me. "This is gonna be great!"
She pulled the bag open and bit half a pill, handing me the other half. Then, without any hesitation, she slammed the other full one down too before flashing her tongue at me the way I imagine they make the patients do at mental hospitals after med time.
"For fuck's sake, Andrea. Really? You said two hours. In two hours' time you're gonna be completely gone, I'll probably have to carry you through the dance floor, prise your fingers off the stage just to get you out the door with me."
"A promise is a promise." She booped my nose condescendingly the way you might a small child. I always hated when she did that, endearing as it was. "When it's over, it's over. I won't hold you back."
"I hope not." I'd gotten the pill down quickly, but that bitter taste still permeated the surface of my tongue and a little at the back of my throat. "I really hope not..."
We rounded the corner and joined the back of the line and found ourselves relieved that it was moving relatively quickly. I stood on my toes and got a decent look at the action up front. The bouncer wasn't even really checking the tickets, just a nod in acknowledgement at whatever random white paper was being presented. This prompted me to check the one in my pocket.
It was riddled with typos. I held it up to Andrea and she looked at me as if I was from Mars.
"What?"
"You paid double for fake tickets?"
"Yeah, so what? They'll get us in, won't they?"
"Jesus, Andrea. I swear, two hours and then we're leaving. Okay? This is gonna be a nightmare to get away from, look how busy this fucking street is, it's all because of these fake ticket scalping fucks..."
The ecstasy had begun to take effect and I couldn't help but feel a little shame for just how hard my half a pill was already kicking my ass. I looked over at Andrea for the first time since we'd joined the queue, of which was quickly packed behind us as we gradually approached the front, boxing us in. She was chewing voraciously at her bottom lip. I put my arm around her shoulder reassuringly and she turned to me with her big wobbly pupils. The vibrant green of her irises almost obscured by them.
"We will get in, right? Won't we?" She asked with a sort of desperation that I understood. I'd had a 'bad' X trip before when my plans got cancelled and I'd taken too much, ended up milling around my apartment hugging pillows and gnawing at my toothbrush. I pictured Andrea disappointedly sitting on her couch while she ferociously stroked her cat with hardstyle blasting through her TV speakers.
"Yeah, I think we'll get in. Don't worry." She pulled me closer to her and we embraced. Usually that took an hour or two but the clear overdose had ramped up the process. "Are you sure you're okay to go in here? You shouldn't have done all that at once."
"Oh, y-yeah" She chattered at me through her clenched teeth. She broke away for a second and yelled into the crowd behind us.
"SUCK SHAFT! WOOO!"
She was met with a rallying cry of about two dozen other people who were also prematurely wasted. With a pleased giggle she took my arm again and snuggled in, which was a relief because it was so damn cold on that sidewalk. We got close to the front and I whispered into Andrea's ear.
"Look, just keep your head down and don't look at the bouncer. If he sees how fucked up you are he won't let us in, okay?"
"Okey-doke…"
"Gimme your ticket."
I took her ticket and approached the big man by the door as Andrea half-hid behind me. No words were exchanged, barely even a look. He grabbed our tickets, and in we went.
"Here's your jacket back." Andrea thrust my knockoff leather jacket towards me and I put it back on, knowing that it'd eventually just become a hindrance in the heat. I followed closely behind as we descended the sickly white painted concrete stairwell, already littered with cigarette butts and empty bottles and vomit possibly from the night before. The music was getting louder as we got closer to the underground set. Thick swathes of bass resonated in the walls and in the floor and the ceiling and I felt myself come alive.
The stairs ended after a few turns and Andrea took my hand and led me into the packed crowd, all moving sinuously to the beat. I felt a jab in my ribs but I didn't care. We were somewhere close to the stage, but I couldn't tell where. My vision flickered and moved with my body as I danced with Andrea, every so often taking an accidental shove from a stranger and giving out a few of my own. That moment, I don't know how long it lasted, but it was the last time I was ever truly happy.
I brushed it off at first, something being shouted that looking back, I know must have been 'fire'. I just didn't want to believe it. Then, when the dancefloor broke its rhythm and people began to push into us towards the exit, I realized what was happening. Andrea looked into my eyes and I could see she knew it too, that rapturous joy snuffed out by terror. When the real world creeps into the fantasies we use to escape, turning them foul forever.
The music was still blaring, but the stage was empty. Smoke trickled out from behind it. Screams began to overtake the bass as people crammed in beside us, all running in the same direction. The lit single door exitway was in near darkness spare a few gaps that weren't full of people squeezing through. It was utter chaos.
All around us the ones who'd fallen over were stepped on in the scramble, I could hear their bones snapping under the weight of frantic footfalls and their pained reactions as they gasped their last breaths before giving in. Several men and women were actively shoving people back, throwing elbows and punches with others retaliating and then succumbing to the trampling themselves. We managed to reach the exit door leading to the stairs, but as I squeezed myself through Andrea's wrist got caught in the doorframe and was shattered by the incoming horde pushing through the cramped doorway three at a time. She screamed, shrieked out, and then was lost. I didn't look back, I was overcome with an unbearable rage. I stood in that doorway and I kicked out hard, knocking at least a dozen people back into the club, which was now entirely ablaze as flames engulfed the stage rendered near invisible by the thick black smoke.
I wasn't giving anything close to a fuck. I jerked my elbows into noses, I yanked back two womem ahead of me and they tumbled backwards down the stairs into the fiery oblivion below. I kicked and I punched and I shoved and I think I even bit a guy at one point, until eventually, I managed to wriggle through the open door and into the night air as sirens screeched down the street towards the scene. I looked back over my shoulder at the carnage as other escapees of the blaze rushed past me to safety. I did too, except I didn't stop running.
I got in my car and I drove home.
Fifty-three people died in that club that night. Seventy were injured, many in ways that'll surely have made their lives a living hell since. Andrea. I'm not sure if Andrea died in the crush or under some fucker's boot or if the smoke got her, or the fire. All I know is that she didn't make it. I just hope it was quick. Oh, fuck, how I hope it was quick... I look back and it's like I can see her lying there by that jammed up door with her wrist all bent backwards with the bone sticking out while she pleads, begs, the other people there to help her. Everyone ignored her. I ignored her.
I don't like to think about it. I can't. So I don't. I moved away. Nobody knows I was there, or what I did. I know I'll never forget it, though. I know that I'll never forgive myself.
2023.03.22 17:31 BlandHorrorFan If you see a file on your computer name "see.jpeg", do NOT open it and follow these seven rules
Why hello there, I hope you were having a wonderful day before you've laid your eyes on this message. There's been a strange "virus" infecting PCs, it's strange that no one has been talking about this, no news, no discussings online, no nothing.
But relax, I'm here to save your butt from this "virus", I have experimented and I know everything there is to know about this thing. However, my identidy must remain anonumous, I don't want whoever created this "virus" to know my location. Keep safe, alright here goes:
Rule no. 1: Don't even think about opening the file named "see.jpeg". Please, I'm trying to keep you alive here, and you know what they say: "Curiosity killed the cat".
If you have already opened the file or simply want to know what happens when you do, then skip to rule 8.
Rule no. 2: Don't delete the file, at least not yet. If you do delete the file without doing what the next rules are asking for, it will simply just keep appearing on your PC making it slower every time until it either crashes your PC completly or it automaticly opens itself.
If your PC crashes then you are in as much danger as if you opened and saw what was in the file.
2A: If your PC crashes and ir doesn't turn on again then you are screwed. The creator of this "virus" will somehow obtain your IP address, what he does next is unknown, he could either do nothing, kidnap you, burn your house down, it's simply unknown what he can do.
Rule no. 3: Install a VPN, other than the "see.jpg" file, there is something else you need to worry about. You see, the creator is an active user of the Dark Web, He also has many alt accounts. If you aren't protected by some VPN, then the creator can also try to obtain your data and your IP address, but instead of keeping the IP address to himself, he spreads your address in the Dark Web for other hackers to see.
And you know how many fucked up videos or pictures are in that site, but what if you end up in a picture or video in there. God, bless you if that happens to you.
Rule no. 4: After you have installed a VPN an entity that I like to call "Fearless Maker" will start to hunt you. It doesn't matter if you have open the .jpeg file or not, it's bassicly a man who is on the .jpeg file who is presumed to be the creator of this "virus", mixed with all fucked up things, stabbed with knifes, barbed-wire around his neck, eyes missing, tongue torned off, etc...
He will start to hunt you when you activate your VPN, don't let him get too close to you or God knows what he'll do to you, maybe he'll tear your eyes out and leave you bleeding in pain, or maybe he'll tear your tongue and leave it hanging.
Whatever you are feeling, just get this in mind "He isn't real, he is just a mix of your fears and anxiety about this whole situation".
After you manage to calm yourself down shine a light at him, he usually only appears in dark places.
It is unknown how he manages to interact physicly with you, but for now just keep in mind that he isn't real.
Rule no. 5: Lock your door, it doesn't matter where you are, just lock your door. If you hear scratching noises on your door, don't move and remain silent for a few minutes, it's the Fearless Creator but he is much more aggressive, you will only be safe when the scratching stops.
If you don't follow this rule, then a image of your face mangled and thorned apart will appear on your screen. Fear this image, because that's what you will become in one hour, the catch is that you will remain alive the whole time, even after having your face mangled into oblivion, you will be still alive until you either die because of saturation, thirst or old age.
Rule no. 6: After acivating the VPN and dealing with the Fearless Creator and the scratching at the door. I want you to go to this specific site called ".jpegextermination.com", click the download button, boot it up and execute it as an administrator.
It will then remove the "virus'" ability to re-appear for a maximum of 6 years, after this you can delete the file and proceed with your life like nothing happened, the Fearless Creator will stop hunting you down and everything will hopefully get back to normal. I still recommend switching from PCs and changing your password, every now and then.
Rule no. 7: If you have open the "see.jpeg" file, you have doomed your hopes of surviving, once you've opened this abomination of a file there will be a picture, open it and you'll see your head and the heads of other people that open this .jpeg file on spikes.
The picture will then become alive, a mangled representation of the creator of this "virus" will appear and smile at you, before a text appeares on the screen reading:
"Marked until the end, your head is my prize, such a good gift for my hard work on this masterpiece! You will watch as this cycle repeats, your head, limbs and body mangled just like the others only because curiosity bothered you. Lord Saddler has granted me such power and now I shall use it wisely. Sleep well, goodbye."
After reading this your body will start to contort in various ways, mangled, penetrated with barbed-wire, knifes and all kind of sharp, painfull objects. You'll be hanged up on chains, and you will be there forever until the end off time.
There is a small chance that nothing happens and that the file is autommaticly deleted after you've opened it, I wouldn't risk, I watched loved ones have the same fate after openning this file, only I survived because of this incredibly rare chance of survival and I hope nothing of bad happens to you.
Farewell, stranger, keep yourself safe out there.
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But relax, I'm here to save your butt from this "virus", I have experimented and I know everything there is to know about this thing. However, my identidy must remain anonumous, I don't want whoever created this "virus" to know my location. Keep safe, alright here goes:
Rule no. 1: Don't even think about opening the file named "see.jpeg". Please, I'm trying to keep you alive here, and you know what they say: "Curiosity killed the cat".
If you have already opened the file or simply want to know what happens when you do, then skip to rule 8.
Rule no. 2: Don't delete the file, at least not yet. If you do delete the file without doing what the next rules are asking for, it will simply just keep appearing on your PC making it slower every time until it either crashes your PC completly or it automaticly opens itself.
If your PC crashes then you are in as much danger as if you opened and saw what was in the file.
2A: If your PC crashes and ir doesn't turn on again then you are screwed. The creator of this "virus" will somehow obtain your IP address, what he does next is unknown, he could either do nothing, kidnap you, burn your house down, it's simply unknown what he can do.
Rule no. 3: Install a VPN, other than the "see.jpg" file, there is something else you need to worry about. You see, the creator is an active user of the Dark Web, He also has many alt accounts. If you aren't protected by some VPN, then the creator can also try to obtain your data and your IP address, but instead of keeping the IP address to himself, he spreads your address in the Dark Web for other hackers to see.
And you know how many fucked up videos or pictures are in that site, but what if you end up in a picture or video in there. God, bless you if that happens to you.
Rule no. 4: After you have installed a VPN an entity that I like to call "Fearless Maker" will start to hunt you. It doesn't matter if you have open the .jpeg file or not, it's bassicly a man who is on the .jpeg file who is presumed to be the creator of this "virus", mixed with all fucked up things, stabbed with knifes, barbed-wire around his neck, eyes missing, tongue torned off, etc...
He will start to hunt you when you activate your VPN, don't let him get too close to you or God knows what he'll do to you, maybe he'll tear your eyes out and leave you bleeding in pain, or maybe he'll tear your tongue and leave it hanging.
Whatever you are feeling, just get this in mind "He isn't real, he is just a mix of your fears and anxiety about this whole situation".
After you manage to calm yourself down shine a light at him, he usually only appears in dark places.
It is unknown how he manages to interact physicly with you, but for now just keep in mind that he isn't real.
Rule no. 5: Lock your door, it doesn't matter where you are, just lock your door. If you hear scratching noises on your door, don't move and remain silent for a few minutes, it's the Fearless Creator but he is much more aggressive, you will only be safe when the scratching stops.
If you don't follow this rule, then a image of your face mangled and thorned apart will appear on your screen. Fear this image, because that's what you will become in one hour, the catch is that you will remain alive the whole time, even after having your face mangled into oblivion, you will be still alive until you either die because of saturation, thirst or old age.
Rule no. 6: After acivating the VPN and dealing with the Fearless Creator and the scratching at the door. I want you to go to this specific site called ".jpegextermination.com", click the download button, boot it up and execute it as an administrator.
It will then remove the "virus'" ability to re-appear for a maximum of 6 years, after this you can delete the file and proceed with your life like nothing happened, the Fearless Creator will stop hunting you down and everything will hopefully get back to normal. I still recommend switching from PCs and changing your password, every now and then.
Rule no. 7: If you have open the "see.jpeg" file, you have doomed your hopes of surviving, once you've opened this abomination of a file there will be a picture, open it and you'll see your head and the heads of other people that open this .jpeg file on spikes.
The picture will then become alive, a mangled representation of the creator of this "virus" will appear and smile at you, before a text appeares on the screen reading:
"Marked until the end, your head is my prize, such a good gift for my hard work on this masterpiece! You will watch as this cycle repeats, your head, limbs and body mangled just like the others only because curiosity bothered you. Lord Saddler has granted me such power and now I shall use it wisely. Sleep well, goodbye."
After reading this your body will start to contort in various ways, mangled, penetrated with barbed-wire, knifes and all kind of sharp, painfull objects. You'll be hanged up on chains, and you will be there forever until the end off time.
There is a small chance that nothing happens and that the file is autommaticly deleted after you've opened it, I wouldn't risk, I watched loved ones have the same fate after openning this file, only I survived because of this incredibly rare chance of survival and I hope nothing of bad happens to you.
Farewell, stranger, keep yourself safe out there.
2023.03.22 17:31 Gullible-Acadia-6480 my (19f) child’s father (23m) ruined our relationship before the child was even born
so i don’t really know where to start, this will probably be pretty long. i am currently pregnant so i’m pretty emotional lol but i am tryna tell this story as unbiased as i can. so i started dating this guy John i’ve always had a lil crush on. John already had a son who was under a year old when we got together, i helped John as much as i possibly could, i began to love that child as if he was my own. the child’s mother is an old classmate of mine n we used to be kinda friends but she is very dramatic n toxic so ofc we couldn’t be civil if i was w her ex. anyways things were normal for a while, they were coparenting as best as possible. for context, me n John stayed together at his dads trailer n John doesn’t have his own phone (by choice). eventually i found out that i was pregnant, and tbh i wasn’t thrilled because John already has a kid so it wouldn’t rly be as special. a couple weeks later his sons mom let us know that she was very pregnant but she had been hiding it n not going to the hospital so that she could continue abusing drgs while pregnant. she ended up giving birth a couple weeks later n it completely shook up our relationship. i’ll admit i probably didn’t handle it the best way, but i was sad that he had yet another kid that wasn’t mine, now he has a son and a daughter, i cant give him his first son or daughter so whats even special about my kid. i avoided helping him w the baby because i didn’t know how to approach the situation but i continued helping w the older kid like normal, for context these two babies are full blood siblings born less than a year apart. shit was just getting all kindsa weird and confusing and eventually John fought his dad n got us kicked out. so after working all day i had to round us up w both his kids and make our way down to my dads house in the middle of the country in the middle of nowhere. i was taking care of him and his kids at MY family home. eventually the kids went back w their mom while John and i were still staying at my dads tryna figure shit out. one day while John was in town for work, i went up to the hospital n i ran into him at his friends, he was acting completely normal kissing me all over saying “i love you gorgeous” and told me to pick him up when i was done. while i was at the hospital he sent me a big ole paragraph about how my mom and his dad ruined everything and now nothing will work. it seemed like he was tryna end things but he just logged out and didn’t say more. so i just went home n figured well get it figured out. well anyway i woke up to see him all over his sons moms story (lets call her Tiana) basically he left for Tiana without saying anything, while i was pregnant n taking care of him n his kids. i reacted w emotions first so i texted Tiana talking shit bc shes a weirdo but she showed me texts of John saying he “wasn’t feeling it w me anymore” but that i was taking care of him and giving him a place to stay. i know Johns plans, he went back to her bc she’ll spend her whole life waiting around for him, shell let him control her, he can see his kids w her and on top of that he can do drgs with her. (ive never had substance abuse issues but a huge majority of my family does) i knew it was never about getting back together w Tiana, it was out of convenience. John is very self destructive so after the first couple of days he ran away from Tiana too. then both of their kids got sick n he let Tiana sat in the hospital waiting for him bc their baby had to get sent out. it took everyone forever to find John because he was running from his problems. anyway so they got sent outta town w their kids. John took of to the hospital outta town w his dad’s pickup and his dads phone, and for awhile, him and Tiana were posting all over social media acting all lovey dovey like they didnt do each other dirty af. i knew they were doing it to get under my skin it was very obvious. i i know that Tiana is pretty jealous of me, shes a lowlife druggie w two kids, thats how i know John only went w her out of convenience, not because he stopped loving me and started loving her again. their relationship was all kinds of toxic and ugly its not good for either of them or the kids. but what sucks is John has never been mean to me or got annoyed w me, he would literally worship the ground i walked on. we were very much in love but it was pretty obvious to everyone else that John was alot more in love, he admitted to intentionally getting me pregnant. this all came so out of the blue and they publicly disrespected and embarrassed me so bad. we live in small town so now everyone knows my bd running around w another girl while i’m carrying his kid. he completely left me in the cold he never broke up w me or said anything about it. as of right now, i think Tiana and John already broke up lol they deleted all their lovey dovey stuff its only been like 2-3 weeks lmao i already knew that would happen. so now all of us and our families are stuck in this ugly ass situation and no one knows what to do. i just need advice on what to do moving forward. i’ve had a very hard life n i went thru it all alone, so as a result i became very defensive of myself, i do not tolerate disrespect at all. so who i be if i let him get away w it? my plans as of right now are to move to my home state about 1000 miles away w my aunties, but i’m really sad. i don’t wanna go thru all of this alone and i don’t wanna raise my daughter without a dad. John is a good dad to his other kids and he used to be a good boyfriend to me, but my mind cant stop thinking about how he disrespected me and embarrassed me so bad. i still have about 5 months left so things could change, so i just need unbiased advice so i can have some time to think about it. i am torn between whether i should move to another state and raise my kid all by myself and leave her dad out of my life for good, or if i should give it time and let him be a dad after everything he did to us. i know it would cause a lot of heartache for all of us to completely exclude him, but he’s the one digging his own grave so now he can lie in it. on the other hand a part of me want to let him back in because my kid deserves a dad and i don’t deserve to go thru this alone. i don’t know if he deserves another chance, he was aware of what he was doing n he knows i wont tolerate this behavior. i’m pregnant so i’m super emotional so i don’t know if i’m being irrational. these are my only options atm.
TLDR - my unborn child’s father blindsided me w disrespect by just up and leaving without saying anything to get back w his other bm and now i don’t know what to do about our baby
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TLDR - my unborn child’s father blindsided me w disrespect by just up and leaving without saying anything to get back w his other bm and now i don’t know what to do about our baby
2023.03.22 17:31 disbmyhappyaccount I wrote something from the perspective of my mother
My son is dead, I wail into the void that was the crowd of people. The echo rummaging through their dead bodies. I grap my hair, ripping it as hard as I can to make the thundering pain in my mind cease for just a moment. I look up and run to the door to find a room I fit in, but I do not fit in my body. It is attached deep in my mind, inescapable. I want it to disappear. Please. Just make it stop, I can not bear it. It cuts my heart, the very fabric of the person that I am in half. I break into a thousand pieces, only for every piece to break into a thousand peices, again and again. There is nothing. I wake up, reminded from that moment to the moment I sleep. I hurt myself by remembering him, but forgetting him is worse. Weeks go by, how can I live with this pain. Every day. Every day I think of joining him. But how could I do this to his sisters? I have been trapped in my life with no way out, but to endure this unimaginable, indescripable, relentless, constant real pain. My dreams are nightmares, but at least I see him there. How can I let go? How can I let go of my baby? Please I just want him back. I just want to tell him how much I love him, how much he meant to me. To take back all the bad things I did and give him all the good things. I just need see him once more. Please. Please just let me see him. I wake up. Sleep is the only place I find solace. Torturous solace. Every one moves on, but how could they? I lost my world. Every part of me aches for completeness I never knew I needed. I stand up, putting on the uniform that tells me I am part okay. Okay enough to live on. But it is a clowns costume and I sewed it myself. And I look around, and people give me their well meaning words, and remind me of the real world. Its ridicolous roles I have to get back to playing. Why would I care about this utterly meaningless drivel? I want my son back. Please, I can not go on. Please, it hurts so much.
Excuse the sloppy writing
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Excuse the sloppy writing
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